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2012-01-22T02:14:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone, I'm done with my 3rd semester for degree, 3 more to go Insyaallah. So, here I am back on my la la land. I have so much to tell, but I guess I have a highly insecure feeling towards expressing my feelings on the internet anymore. Well as I said, I have so much to tell, so much as in so very much much much much but I just can't tell it here, or anywhere.

Damn, I hate the feeling. Why do we have to have people who are following us everywhere here and there? Thinking of it, I guess I have the answer for the insecurity. It's not those people that made me feel insecure, it's that one person I think, hahaha. Okay, let me just keep it to myself then. Anyway, I'm happy that it's semester break now but still it bores me when I have nothing to do. But fret not because next week will be the starting point of my busiest schedule, I guess. Oh, can I say this, I miss studying and stressing out for finals. Hehe.

So far, everything is good. Having friends here and there, old friends, long lost friends, friends, new friend. I think I lose my writing sparks, or maybe I never even had one. I'm writing crap now, lol. I'm not sure what kind of emotion that I'm expressing now. Hahahahaha, I'm confused with myself. I miss blogging, seriously. Okay I'll try again to write good things some other time, aite?

Good night, lovelies.

Dear you, there is still much to be done. Let's not lose sight. Sincerely, me.

Photos credit to hiimmira.tumblr :)

P/S: Hi mira, sebab awak lah kayin rasa nak post something tibatiba hehe.

I won't run, I won't fly, I will never make it mine without you.

2011-12-28T03:39:00.000+08:00

HAI

SAYA ADA HEADER BARU !

ITU SAHAJA YANG SAYA MAHU BERITAHU, HEHE.

SELAMAT MALAM, MIMPI INDAH.

When the rain is blowing in your face.

2011-11-05T01:17:00.001+08:00

I miss blogging.

Seriously,

I have loads and loads of things to share

but, I just don't know where to start

and I ended up keeping things to myself.

I wish I could have the old me back, I'm better off that way.

I miss you Adzrin Nadzirah.

Anyway, I just graduated.

Yup, that's me.

That person in the middle of everyone.

Goodnight...

We all go round and round, partners are lost and found.

2011-09-13T19:18:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum selamat petang

Saya sedang bersenang lenang di rumah ni. Sambil minum shake, sebab lapar satu hari ke sana ke mari. Nasib baik ada shake kenyang diriku ini.

Sooooo, how's life huh? Haha tah pape gila soalan. Saja saja tanya macam tu, saya baru 2 hari buka semester baru untuk Bachelor. One word, TIRING. Ye lah mana tak penat, satu hari pergi panjat campus tu boleh settlekan satu benda je. Ni 2 hari, baru settle dua benda which is semalam dapat file hijau, harini dapat contact Penasihat Academic. Lain-lain, apa pon tak jalan.

Bachelor ni tak sama macam Diploma.

Reason:

1. Dah tukar course from Diploma in Investment Analysis sekarang dah jadi Bachelor (Hons) in International Business.

Ye, saya tukar line. Sepatutnya kalau course saya sambung Bachelor (Hons) in Finance. Akan tetapi yours truly ni terpaksa akur dengan takdir untuk berubah arah. Okay bukan salah takdir, saya yang menentukan sendiri. Saya yang memang tak nak buat Finance. Alaa nak cerita panjang panjang kenapa amik IB sekarang memang belit, senang cerita sebab PIN and password masa isi borang online tu hilang, bila jumpa dah tak sempat nak betulkan pilihan course. Hihi, my mistake I know.

2. Close friends cum family from Uitm Johor dulu semuaaaaa dapat Uitm Shah Alam.

Okay, ni part yang nak buat saya beremosi ni. Management Uitm kan dah pecahkan faculty kitorang kat dua tempat ikut courses, so Finance still kat Shah Alam, IB pulak kena transfer pergi Puncak Alam. So here I am now, buat Bachelor kat Puncak. The campus is not bad, surroundings okay, cuma nak kena berkenalan dengan course mates baru. Okay tak semua dapat Shah Alam, Intan dapat Puncak Alam jugak. Tapi tak rapat sangat pon dengan dia, okay okay je lah, tapi tak bercerita rahsia pon haha. Tapi dia pon dah ada kawan kawan from course lain. So all in all just nak kena adapt dengan new place. ( Tak berapa new pon sebab masa cuti dah kerja 2 bulan kat situ haha)

3. Belajar & duduk rumah sendiri dengan family setelah 8 tahun berjauhan.

Haha tragic sangat bunyi dia. Betul apa 5 tahun duduk hostel (Semashur) 3 tahun duduk kat Johor (Diploma Uitm) tiba tiba duduk rumah pulak sekarang, sorang sorang pulak tu. Adik badik semuaaaa belajar kat Arau lah, Kuantan lah, Cyberjaya lah. Jadi anak tunggal lah saya sekarang ni. Boring gila asyik kurung diri dalam bilik, drive pergi class sorang sorang paling tragic T_T. Dulu tinggal kat hostel dan kolej dgn beratus orang, duduk rumah sewa dengan 10 orang, naik kereta beramai ramai, nyanyi lagu sama sama, happy nangis sama sama, gossip sampai tertidur. Sekarang ni gossip dengan mak je lah ye. Itupon dia balik kerja dah penat, tidur awal. Takpelah, balas jasa ibu bapa pon apa salahnya kan? Ni lah masa nak berbakti kat rumah and mereka sementara masih ada masa. :)

*okay sambung mengarang balik. tadi mummy call lepas tu dia merajuk sebab saya tersalah menggunakan nada bercakap di telefon. harap maaf mummy*

4. Selama ni share duit minyak kereta, sekarang share dengan diri sendiri.

Dulu naik kereta orang, kalau nak guna baru isi minyak, sekarang bawak kereta sendiri, guna tak guna kena isi minyak, mahal, ulang alik jauh, panjat puncak, kena rempittttttttttttzzz okayzzz. -__- Tak boleh bawak kereta slow slow nanti rasa macam tak sampai sampai kat campus. Teruk betul macam ni. Tapi takpe, kena cari gang, tadi dah jumpa sorang budak BJ yawll. Nanti boleh car pooool. Mandi swimming pool pon boleh.

5. BECAUSE IT'S BACHELOR BABY, NOT DIPLOMA!

Haha kan tu reason paling senang. Well, baru 2 days je pon. Nanti dah happy, galak bagai tak ingat apa tak emo langsung. Ahaha, kawan kawan bersedialah untuk lupakan saya, saya nak lupakan anda semua ni. Ngeheheh lagi lagi Syidaaa, asyik rindu je dia tu sampai demam terus. Kesian awak, alah I'm just one call away, selang beberapa section di Shah Alam sahaja. :D

So, that's all for today. Tengok lah kalau free and rajin saya akan post apa apa lagi ya.

Take care, Garnier.

Because it's Maybelline.

Lol, buh bye lovesssss!

Perasaan nak berteman lelaki membuak buak?

2011-08-18T14:20:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

Salam ramadhan kawan kawan. :)

Mesti semua tertanya tanya kenapa lah bulan ramadhan ni saya nak buat post bukan bukan ni? Takde lah, tengah berborak dengan Syida pasal isu ni so terfikir macam macam dalam kepala otak. So, mari kita kupas faktor faktor kenapa perasaan membuak buak?

1. Umur.

Umur dah meningkat dewasa, makin hari terasa makin tua. Ramai pulak tu kawan kawan dan orang sekeliling yang sebaya dah berkahwin. Mesti lah rasa diri ketinggalan di belakang.

2. Video.

Kebanyakan orang kahwin zaman sekarang buat video best best, tangkap gambar cantik cantik. Memang lah semua orang pon bernafsu nak kahwin.

Eh jap, aku rasa aku lari topik. Perasaan berteman lelaki, bukan perasaan nak berkahwin kan? Hahahahahahaha okay rasa sangat bongok. Malas lah nak sambung macam ni, dah malu.

Sebenarnya perasaan tu membuak buak sebab nak rasa ada orang teman, rasa macam sunyi je hari hari. Tapi kalau ada pon susah jugak, nak buat itu ini lah, nak gaduh lagi lah, macam macam. Lagipun dah 2 tahun single. Okay nothing to be impressed with pon kan. Tu lah padahnya, kalau sebelum ni tak pernah berboyfriend lah senang cerita, takde hal pon kan, takde nak sedih lah sunyi lah bagai. Tapi sebab dah terjebak, pastu bila dah tak ada balik memang lah susah nak hidup cool macam sebelumnya.

Eh tapi saya okay je, takde pon nak sunyi ke nak sepi ke sedih ke saja saja je cakap pasal ni, sebab boring takde orang nak teman shopping harini. Bulan ni asyik shopping je padahal duit pon dah suam suam kuku dah ni. Nak kena bekerja keras lagi lah bulan ni nak kumpul duit. Mari!

Alahai apa yang saya dah tulis ni rasa macam melalut pulak. Dah type so tak sampai hati untuk tak post. Okay lah, lepas ni nak post sesuatu yang lebih serius.

Secrets.

2011-08-07T22:08:00.002+08:00

‎"Tell me what you want to hear, something that were like those years, I'm sick of all the insincere so, I'm gonna give all my secret away." - One Republic.

Finding reasons to hate you more than before

2011-07-12T02:52:00.000+08:00

Dah dua tahun tak update blog, busy.

Maklumlah, kerja 8 hari seminggu. Jangan jealous okay! -__-"

Nak upload gambar, camera pon takde, laptop pon tunggu masa je nak Innalillah. Harap harap bukan dalam masa terdekat ni ye sayangku. Muah muah.

Badan lenguh lenguh sejak jadi buruh kasar ni. Haha eh, dari dulu memang dah kasar pon. Jadi buruh tu tak berapa nak baru sangat lah, okay okay je.

Tapi sejak kelmarin, baru faham perasaan orang jual air kat pasar malam. Sekarang dah tau kenapa kat pasar lelaki yang jual air, bukan perempuan.

Seterusnya, rindu kat kawan kawan.

Seterusnya lagi, rindu kat yang bukan kawan.

Serta seterusnya lagi, rindu kat kau.

Kau lah, yang tengah baca post ni sekarang. :)

Nak tidur. Bye bye Si Kunang Kunang.

Some pages turn, some bridges burn, but there were lessons learnt.

2011-05-27T01:55:00.002+08:00

No, I don't know what is up to me, I laugh too much recently. They don't know much about us... - Random Awesome, Yuna.

Selamat 12:57 pagi. :)

Hari ini saya rasa sungguh lega. Alhamdulillah, mari senyum beramai ramai untuk saya. Saya gembira, anda semua jugak sudah tentu gembira. (Ceh tak ada kena mengena langsung)

Sebab gembira ada dua.

1) Biarlah rahsia :') *Gembira dan sangat lega*

2) "Jalan-jalan cari makan bersama Encik Bud." - Mission accomplished.

Best wooh berjalan-jalan atas dasar mencari makanan. Ngap ngap ngap.

Tapi kedai yang di singgah harini biasa je, kedai kedai yang selalu makan.

Mula mula jumpa double J.

Lepas tu MAKAN TIME!

Last sekali sebelum balik bag kegemaran untuk ke kelas dan bershopping bertukar hak milik. Terpaksa bagi atas sebab mengecewakan orang lain secara tak sengaja. T_T

Dah bertukar jadi cerita sedih lah pulak, tadi elok elok gembira. Dah lah taknak tulis lagi. Oh ada lagi satu sebab untuk bersedih, hubungan kitorang dah terputus, kan awak? "CALL tak kan angkat, SMS ignore, WALL POST buat bodoh, IM takkan jawab" Woah :O Dahsyat betul hukuman. Tapi dia dah langgar dulu, tiba tiba je pergi Im OH kat fb tadi haha, bongok.

Okay nak tidur penat gila drive, mengantuk gila babs. Selamat!

She's just above the stars.

2011-05-26T02:33:00.002+08:00

Current Obsession:

Watched "Something Borrowed" few days back.

Felt like I was being slapped by the story line,
and most of the things that they said,
and I figure out something,
the lesson that I learned from the movie is,
something big.

"Make a decision."

I - have - to - DECIDE.
It's a MUST, to MAKE A DECISION,

and I must forget you. Yes, you!

Oh heyyyyyyyyy, congratulations friends!
We are now officially a fresh graduate! :D

Till then, toodles.

Sometimes, the person you want the most, is the person you're best without.

2011-05-21T04:03:00.001+08:00

Pernah tak rasa rindu sangat kat orang yang korang tau korang tak sepatutnya rindu? Mesti pernah kan? Persoalan pertama, kenapa tak sepatutnya rindu? Sebab pertama: Orang yang korang rindu tu bekas kekasih yang pernah sakitkan hati kaw kaw shit? Sebab kedua: Orang tu ialah artis yang tak kenal korang langsung? Sebab ketiga: Orang tu ialah secret admire korang yang korang tak pernah bertegur sapa pon. Sebab keempat: Orang tu ialah kawan korang yang pernah ada masalah dengan korang tapi tak pernah nak settlekan dengan cara baik? Dan banyak lagi lah kan sebab sebab lain yang munasabah untuk kategori "tak sepatutnya rindu" ni.

Dalam kes aku, aku taknak lah bagitau dia duduk dalam sebab ke berapa sebab aku tak mention pon sebab apa aku cakap orang tu tak patut aku rindu. Tapi memang munasabah betul lah sebab apa aku tak patut rindu orang yang aku rindu ni. Kejap, aku sebenarnya tak pasti jugak yang aku ni rindu dia ke apa, yang aku tau dia selalu sangat sangkut kat kepala otak aku. Kalau aku tengah tak buat apa apa mesti teringat, kalau tengah buat apa apa pon kadang kadang teringat jugak. Ni aku tengah menulis ni sebab teringat lah kot, tadi tak ingat pon, tapi lepas pilih nak letak status tu, terus teringat.

Siapa dia manusia yang aku teringat sangat ni? Itu pon aku taknak bagitau. Kalau korang nak korang main teka teka lah, mungkin dia ex aku, mungkin dia kawan aku, mungkin dia family member aku, atau mungkin dia siapa siapa je lah kan. Aku tulis ni pon sebab aku rasa macam nak salurkan beban di kepala otak ni supaya aku tak ingat sangat. Ceh ceh beban lah sangat kan? Tak beban pon, biasa biasa je lah tak effect apa pon, kan dah habis diploma, tak ada apa sangat nak fikir haha. Sila jangan cemburu. Eh cemburu? Weird gila guna perkataan tu hahahaha.

Sebenarnya aku tengah cari sebab ni, kenapa makhluk Allah yang sorang ni boleh sangkut dalam kepala otak aku. Padahal banyak lagi orang lain boleh sangkut kan? Bagi lah Johnny Depp ke, emm siapa lagi artis hensem hensem? Okay aku tak kenal artis, patut pon tak boleh nak sangkut haha. Aku boring sebenarnya ada dalam keadaan macam ni, ada rasa tak seronok. Ala aku cerita lah sikit, dia ni sebenarnya rapat dengan aku sebelum sebelum ni, lepas tu ada benda jadi buat kitorang jadi tak rapat. Lepas tu dah make up balik, settle kan benda tapi entah settle tapi tak habis kot. Lepas tu benda tak jadi macam dulu balik, maksudnya macam masa sebelum ada masalah tu lah kan, so aku rasa macam tak sedap.

Entah lah, sedih jugak kadang kadang fikir, lepas tu tengok gambar gambar lama mahupun baru. Rasa macam ruginya lah bergaduh berperang dingin bagai. Kan bagus kalau masa masa tu digunakan untuk merapatkan silaturrahim, mesti perasaan macam ni tak wujud. Kan kan? Setuju tak setuju? Tolong lah setuju please. Tapi nak buat macam mana jugak kan, itu dah tertulis, takdir Tuhan. Aku tak salahkan takdir pon, jangan risau.

Tak apa lah, yang dah lepas tu biarlah lepas. Aku tau cakap je memang senang, sebab aku ni lagilah jenis walaupon benda tu dah berlalu, selagi tak ada jalan penyelesaian, selagi yang bersalah tak mengaku salah, selagi benda yang sepatutnya buat tak dibuat, selagi tu lah hati aku tak tenang. Jangan disangka air yang tenang tiada buaya. Hah, aku pon tak tau apa kena mengena dengan pepatah tu.

Wah aku tak sangka dah panjang dah aku membebel ni. Dulu aku pernah tanya si dia yang aku teringat ni, aku rasa aku ni banyak sangat bercakap membebel apa semua, patut ke aku jadi pendiam je atau berubah ke apa ke, dia ni terus bangkang cakap tak payah, "kau jadi je diri kau". Yelah betul lah tu, tapi dia pon jarang jarang nak bercakap dengan aku lagi, apatah lagi nak dengar aku bercerita dan membebel kan? Dulu aku selalu lah jugak berkongsi cerita dengan dia. Tapi itu semua hanya sementara. Hanya lagu yang menjadi ingatan, hanya lagu yang menjadi kenangan. Eh termenyanyi pulak haha.

Dah lah, taknak cakap pasal tu lagi, sekarang nak cakap pasal cuti 4 bulan. Aku setakat ni duduk rumah je lah tak bekerja lagi. Oh tak tak, aku lupa pulak aku ni Independent Distributor Herbalife. So aku ni kira macam sentiasa employed lah walaupon unemployed kan? Hah sesiapa yang rasa rasa macam nak cuba product Herbalife ni tapi segan ke, malu ke, ragu ragu ke, tak yakin ke, boleh lah tanya aku. Kalau malu nak tanya kuat kuat, bisik je lah kat telinga aku ke?

Tapi jangan risau lah, product ni Insyaallah setakat ni memang berkesan. Bagitau je apa masalah korang, banyak lemak, kurang lemak, nak otot lebih, nak ramping macam semut, nak kulit licin macam aku, eh bukan macam tomato ke, tengah mengandung, lepas mengandung nak turunkan berat jadi anak dara balik, semua masalah tu Insyaallah dah ada orang yang pernah selesaikan guna produk Herbalife ni.

Aku pon tak suka jugak nak kepoh kepoh, aku tak reti pon nak approach orang, tapi setakat ni orang yang approach aku hahaha. Oh lupa, kalau teringin nak jadi hebat macam Messi pon boleh try "tanya saya bagaimana" kat aku okay. Aku nak kongsi sikit je lah, Herbalife ni tak pernah claim dia ni ubat yang boleh sembuhkan penyakit, tapi secara logik akal nya bila korang dah telan good nutrition, mestilah badan pon secara automatisnya menjadi sihat. Betul tak Dr. Hani, Piko dan Debby? Hahaha :DD

Okay lah aku rasa aku macam dah type panjang sangat je, tanpa gambar pulak tu. Mesti para pembaca aku merasa sedikit bosan dan pening lalu meng-skip skip baris ayat beserta perenggan sekali kan? Haa jangan tipu aku, sebab aku bila baca blog yang panjang sangat pon macam tu. Sama je kita! Hehe. Dah lah selamat pagi para makhluk alam semua. Saya doakan anda semua yang membaca ni sihat serta sentiasa menjalani kehidupan yang sihat sihat belaka. Amin. :)

The world can't change my dreams, but my dreams can always change the world.

2011-05-20T01:58:00.002+08:00

He used to be my classmate for 5 years, we had the-almost-same handwriting, we almost studied in the same field which is architecture but I changed my mind just before I submitted my form online, we both had our awful-break-up and shared the pain with each other, both of us had just finished with our last semester of diploma, and now both of us are being very ambitious in dreaming of pursuing our studies in UK.

Thank you God, for the 8 years of friendship. Alhamdulillah. :')

It's your birthday today! Or should I say yesterday? Okay I know this post is like waaaaaay too late but sorry dude, I'd planned to write this a little bit earlier but something came up so I had to postpone it. Sorry again! So, you're 21 huh? You're old, hey old fag! Ahaha no I'm just joking. You're my coolest best friend ever. Even though we don't see each other often, we'd always be there for one another when we need each other right? Enjoy being an old man! Can't wait for the roadtrip, I hope it will come true. Tralalalalala.

"The latest picture(2011) of us."

I know I know, I forgot to mention, we share the same hairstyle too. Okay, it's not a style, it's our original hair, CURLY CURLY PERM!

"An old picture(2008) of us with our cute faces."

On top of all, I wish for your success in whatever you do, wherever you go and who ever you're with. I hope that we'll be friends forever and ever and ever and please find a decent girl to be your wife so that she'll suit your crazyness and with that, I can be friends with her and we can still be best friends even though we're married. Have a wonderful day, just as wonderful as you are to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMAD SYAHMI!

P/S: Tolonglah appreciate aku edit the first picture pakai paint tau tak! Photoshop tak boleh pakai pulak time time ni, sampai nak terkencing-kencing crop gambar kau tu! Nasib baik comel, senang hati tengok sambil edit hahaha.

My love's too big for you, my love.

2011-04-29T03:07:00.007+08:00

Instead of studying or sleeping, I chose to write something here.

Hi everyone, I'm in the midst of wrapping up my Diploma life. I have 2 subjects to go and one is tomorrow, umm I meant this evening, the other one will be on Saturday morning. I know that it is too good to be true but seriously, the level of focus on my final exam that I have by now is only like 30% ? I spend most of the time lying on the floor or my bed and remembering all the memories that I had here, leaving me in full speed of sadness and in no mood of studying. To make it worse, I feel like a bummer.

I really need a spirit booster. Okay just ignore me, everyone had tried their best to comfort me, boost up my spirit but it is just me, and I feel empty inside as goodbyes is my pure weakness. Apart from that, I know that I should not get too carried away with those thoughts, but I just can't. Or maybe I can, but I didn't try. Maybe I'm just too scared of not having them beside me all the time anymore.

Despite everything, I would like to thank everyone who had lighten up my life, you guys had painted the white canvas of my life with very beautiful colours. Loves.

I know I've said this for quite a few times but I'm gonna say it again; I never thought that I would love you guys this much, each one of you, and that makes it even harder for me to see all of us drift apart.

Goodbye:

Farah, Syida, Ainaa, Dalila, Baby Farahin

"Budak Rumah" / Sengkang Boys (Agus, Azhari, Faizul, Muiz, Syafiq, Musa)

Part 1 SMK Wing 2A (Nurul, Nadia, Shikin, Zati, Ayu)

Sajrah, Nissa, Intan, Ain

PPG (Mira, Nazira, Edurra, Nadiah) and Ilham

Azie, Mel, Jiha

All of Investment Analyst

Tutee & Fara

Part 4 (Wawa, Za, Syafi, Syida, Faras, Farad, Kiki, Mujel, Adam, Afifi, Naguib)

Miss Didee, Miss Intan, Miss Maizura and all lecturers

ELS Dear :'(

Housemates & Neighbours

Every particular person in Uitm Johor

Landlord (Uncle and Aunty)

Abang Pot Black (for the free songs during karaoke)

Abang Anjung Paling Hensem (for serving us and for those funny jokes during dinner)

Uncle and abang Cendol (for the best cendol ever)

Uncle Ted (for chopping off my hair)

Tumini Atan and Basikal (for the cheapest lunch for us everyday!)

Cik Da, Cik Faizal and Saufianim

McD, Secret Recipe, US, Pizza Hut, KFC, Mawa D Village, Old Taste, Kopitiam

Hotel Villa

Giant, Upwell, Nirwana, 7E

Uncles and Aunties of all the convenience shop

Shell & Petronas

and the smell of Segamat, Johor.

I'm gonna miss all of you and all these like hella good.

P/S: Special thanks to Azhari for lending me his favourite pillow, for me to cry on, I'll return it back to you tomorrow. :')

Even the best of friends must part

2011-03-17T13:14:00.001+08:00

Hello selamat tengah hari kawan kawan :)

Harini saya tak ada kelas, eh silap ada kelas pagi tapi pensyarah pula tak kunjung tiba. Malam ni final dinner kitorang. Nervous sangat sebab tu lah post kat blog. Mesti orang pelik kan, nak dinner pon nak nervous. Ala bukan nervous sebab apa, sebab this will be our last dinner so dah terasa aura aura sedih tu. I did the montaj untuk final semester student. Semalam masa buat tak rasa apa apa, rasa macam bosan gila video aku buat ni, tapi tadi bila tengok balik dah start rasa sedih dah. Sigh, I just hate goodbyes.

Oh, malam ni saya mungkin menyanyi on stage dengan Ainaa Abdullah, lepas tu Agushudi Muhsin dengan Noor Amirah Ahmad nak bersajak, Azzali Zainoldin dan Muizuddin Mohd Shah pulak main gitar. Adoi lagi lah nervous. Nanti pukul 2 nak pergi practice kat campus. Dah lah hidung tengah sumbat, sure sumbang lah nanti. Malu lah pulak, boleh tak nak cancel last minute? Nak pakai dress malam ni pon nervous gak, nanti berapa orang je yang bersemangat, orang lain tak pon. Macam mana?

Tak sangka sedih macam ni nak habis diploma. Dulu masa part 1 selalu rasa macam ala tak ada pape lah bukan rapat sangat pon dengan diorang ni semua. Lagipon zaman muda muda tu kan dah berpunya so memang kawan dengan perempuan je. Tak rapat pon dengan lelaki hehe gedik kan? Yang paling penting tak sedar pon kewujudan lelaki kat sekeliling dulu dulu, semalam masa buat slide tengok gambar lama lama baru perasan yang rupanya lelaki lelaki tu semua ada je kat mana mana kitorang ada, and kalau celebrate pape ada haha. Lawak betul. Since sekarang dah jadi bestfriends dah dengan diorang semua, and rapat sangat dengan classmates, lagi lah jadi sedih.

Nak tau tak, kepala otak saya ni macam filem tau sebab dia suka flashback benda benda yang dah jadi, ingat satu satu macam dalam filem tu lah. Haha pastu minggu lepas kan, eh tak minggu lepas sangat pon, awal minggu ni je, tah kenapa tah tak bertegur sapa dengan kawan kawan lelaki tu. Datang class diam je dorang tak cakap apa pon, saya pon diam je pastu tak pernah pernah selama 3 bulan ni kena tinggal time lunch, Monday tu keluar class tengok dorang dah lesap dah. Sekali jumpa masa nak makan, kat kedai sama tapi duduk meja lain lain jauh jauh tak tegur pon. Sedih sedih.

Petang tu Agushudi lah start tegur, dia cakap "Hmmm yinn jom pergi makan?" Lepas tu saya cakap " Eh bukan ke korang dah lupa kat yinn?" Dia diam je, lepas tu kitorang pon buat lah heart to heart conversation, Faizul ada sekali dia sampai sebak sebak, Adzrin mestilah dah nangis dah. Ainaa teman je kat tepi, Musa dengan Azhari pulak datang and masa dia datang tu saya tengah cakap "Aku tak tau lah salah aku ke, salah korang ke, pening dah aku..." dan Azhari dari jauh terus jawab "Tak yinn bukan salah kau" ke apa tah macam tu lah. Kitorang cakap cakap cakap, apologize semua, and saya ternampak kelopak mata Azhari basah, dia pon sedih jugak.

Kesimpulannya nasib baik all is well before dinner malam ni, kalau tak mesti sedih gila tak bertegur time dinner. So, malam ni boleh lah tangkap gambar banyak banyak, nyanyi sama sama. Nanti sem depan dah tak dapat dah macam ni. Kalau masuk Uitm balik pon untuk degree, bukan nya satu course dengan semua ni balik kan? Kalau pergi UK lagi lah. Now kena cherish every moment! Dah settle dinner, kena bersatu padu untuk siapkan final project and also final presentation.

Okaylah, toilet memanggil pulak. Nak weeweeweee, jumpa malam ni okay kawan kawan. Harap harap bawak tissue lah satu kotak, takut sedih sangat pulak nanti kan? Anyway, consumer Herbalife yang on programme jangan lupa minum shake and tea! Lagi lagi Muzill Mustakim, nanti dah hensem kita kahwin okay? Hehehehehehe :P So siapa nak kahwin awal minum lah shake and tea.

Haha okay saya main main je.
Selamat tinggal semua orang yang disayangi!

Lagu untuk kawan kawan tersayang kat Johor ni:

Mata bertentang mata, adakah kau terasa cinta kian memekar di hati kita? Kau istimewa paling utama yang satu, betapa manisnya senyumanmu. Debaran penuh makna, kelu tidak terkata sering kali terjadi bila kau disisi. Namum yang pasti membuat ku jatuh hati, oh manisnya, manisnya senyumanmu. :D

Though we tried, you can't deny we're left as shells, we lost the fight.

2011-02-20T22:59:00.001+08:00

Semua rasa tak kena, entah kenapa. Emosi tak stabil, kadang kadang gembira, kadang kadang sedih, rasa kosong. Rasa kosong tanpa sebab, dengar lagu dan tanpa aku sedar, air mata mengalir laju. Mungkin sebab lama sangat tak balik. Dah besar pon boleh homesick jugak kan? Okay, homesick.

Semua benda tak kena, hari tu pms. Menangis sehari suntuk, orang lain salah cakap sikit, menangis, orang menanyi lagu tak kena, menangis, orang tegur, menangis, sambil makan menangis, bila masuk tandas, baru dapat jawapan. Oh, pms. Tapi sekarang bukan pms, memang tak tau kenapa.

Semua rasa tak kena, sebab semua benda memang tak kena. Tak tau apa yang boleh menggembirakan. Apa ya? Cakap lah dengan sesiapa pon, tak gembira gembira jugak. Kesian kesian. Nak cakap dengan mummy? Lagi lah tak boleh, banjir satu segamat ni lagi.

Semua rasa tak kena lagi, dah cakap dengan mereka mereka yang boleh dipercayai, tapi tak tenang lagi. Jawapan dia, aku pon tau sendiri, solat, cakap dengan Tuhan, mesti Tuhan dengar. Kan?

You'll only find a few people in this world who will tell you they love you and mean it with all of their hearts

2011-02-03T03:16:00.002+08:00

Cerita Seorang Mak Yang Comel

Feb 2, 2011

(Texts between 013-xxxxxx7 & 013-xxxxxx5)

16:44:01

Agussss

17:12:46

Yinnnn...kenapeeee...competitor awak dah delisted ye? (For those who doesn't understand this, a public listed competitor is needed to make company analysis, our final project paper)

17:15:46

Hahahaha. Yup. Tapi saya text awak bukan sebab tu.

17:15:48

Abes tuuu?

17:17:33

Nak suruh bagi semangat sikit. Harini lemah je. Tak buat pape selain tidur.

17:18:27

Pergilah mcD yg oi...

17:20:39

Buatpe gi mcD?

17:25:57

Sebab kat sana ada smiley and prosperity...and kat sana pon ada memori yang boleh ying kenang2 sambil nyenyum sorg2~ :)

17:40:05

Memory apaaa?

17:42:56

Sem lepas kan kita lepak mcD sampai larut malam buat kerja sambil amek gambar macam orang gileee...fun ooo...

18:20:40

Yin pernah dengar tak cerita seorang mak yang comel sentiasa tabah dan kuat semangatnyee~ ?

18:22:28

Hmmmmmmmm.

18:28:37

What happen to that mak?

18:34:32

Saya pernah jugak menginterview tentang seorang emak yang disegani kat tempat saya belajar...antara jawapannya:

"...beliau seorang yang tabah orangnya, dan ramai yang suka berkawan dengannya..."

"...oh!dia?..wow...sangat cool k?even sometimes agak emotional...tapi beliau lah tempat kami mengadu..."

"...hehe,beliau sangat mengambil berat tentang orang lain and sensitif dengan perasaan orang lain...and she's cool man!..."

"...tak,bagi saya dia biasa2 je...tapi apa yang saya cakap tu saya tipu je!hahaha...siapa yang tak hormat dia?dia kuat semangat,kreatif and caring ok?kalau saya ada peluang,saya nak kahwin dengan dia!..."

"...she's gonna be the first woman prime minister in Malaysia...she's gorgeous and patient!..."

"...tak,beliau ada saja kepala otak nye untuk selesaikan masalah...sangat pintar dan tangkas...and I'm gonna fall in love with her when I'm available..."

"...adorable,strong,patient,responsible,care and cute!:)..."

"...dia baik orang nye, eh tak...atas kepada baik and atas atas atasnya lagi..."

18:43:40

Mak tu mak siapa? Anyway ni cerita betul ke rekaan semata mata?

18:46:51

Mak tu adalah kamu...

Kamu lah yang menjadi tempat untuk kami mengadu dan mengeluh...

Kamu lah yang memberi semangat kepada kami bila kami hilang semangat...

Ini bukan rekaan la makk...tapi inilah apa yang saya rase...:)

18:49:58

:'(

Sejak bila agus jadi wartawan melodi?

18:51:57

Alaaaaaa...janganlah nangis...nanti gambar kena snap kang jadi kontroversi...senyum2...macam ni...

:-) :-D ;-) B-)

18:54:25

Tengah tahan nangis lah ni. Sebab dalam kereta so malulah. Dah lah dari semalam moody nak nangis tak nangis nangis. Agus cakap macam tu terus sedih gilaaaa.

18:55:52

Alololoo...apsal ni?kenapa sedih2 ni?

18:57:01

Tak ada pape lah agus :)

Nape agus tiba tiba sms cakap macam tu eh?

18:58:11

Takdelah..nak lah tau juga punca kesedihan tersebut...mungkin boleh dibelasah ke...

18:59:28

Bukan. Maksud yin kenapa agus tiba tiba sms cerita pasal mak tu?

Yang pasal kesedihan tu nanti agus mesti tau punya. Heheh sekarang relax je dulu.

19:01:18

Bukan...ianya untuk memberi tahu...betapa hebatnya beliau and untuk mengingatkannya yang dia seorang yang kuat untuk mengalah...

19:09:27

Thanks agus :/

Sedih lah yinn macam ni,uwaaa. Taknak habis sem boleh tak. Agus,of all the things yang yin kuat, I hate goodbyes. That is my pure weakness.

19:13:24

Alolololo...relaxlah yin..masa untuk say good bye kan lama lg...so,kita enjoy sama2 as much as we can!..okay darling? :)

19:16:05

Hehe, rasa macam kelakar je haritu yin baru je cakap kat agus pasal ni. Bagus, agus dah pandai :D Aguslah yang buat yin sedih harini. Haha tapi takpe yinn kuat! :D

19:17:30

Hahahaa...karma kehidupan..hehe k lah udah senja ni...u take care okeyh?

19:19:26

Okay thanks a lot agus sebab sudi jadi wartawan melodi and berusaha menaikkan my spirit! Love uuuuuuuu! :D

19:21:29

Hahaha..Ok dear..takde hal mak anak kan?..hehe...love u tuututt..hihi.. (Agus malu! HAHA)

Agus & Yinn, during our event

both a kinetic person, both a leader, both are childish, Agus is taken, Yinn is single.

but Yinn loves Agus' girl too, right Farahin? Because we're sisters. :)

and we cried over silly things together.

Thanks again Agus, you made my day. You make me remember who I am and where I'm supposed to be. You lifted up the spirit! Azhari did the same thing too today. He sent me the "semangat" through a text just now. :D Thanks guys! And another Goodbye? Oh maaaaan not again, after effing 3 years? Haih, I have to pray hard to God so that I could be as hard as the rock on our last day together aite?

Good Luck for Viva! Love love love. :')

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

2011-01-31T00:36:00.002+08:00

When my blog is neglected, it’s a pretty good sign that I’m happy and busy." - @timwindsor

Hello everyone! I was and still busy, because it's my final semester. There is so much to do and sooooo freakin little time! I'm in Johor Bahru now. Gonna spend the whoooooooole CNY holiday here! :) And I'm going to Singapore soon. But then again, it's raining non stop here in Johor, and somewhere else in the country I suppose? I've been sleeping the whole evening, just hoping for the rain to stop, but it didn't. Segamat is by flooded now, sobs sobs. I really wanna see how my house looks like now and I am so worried! Plus, I don't want the holiday to be extended, no no.

Since I'm not going back to Shah Alam, I'm gonna miss my friends the most, and Sunway Pyramid. Oh maaaaan. :/ I'm gonna miss Encik Bud the most, and Mak Suhar, it has been a while since the last time I met them. And oh, Fariz tooo, and Syahmi Cami Gila! Plus, everyone. I meant EVERYONE back in KL! You know who you are.

It's okay, I really need to sacrifice a bit, since I have to finish my Final Project progression right? I just need to be a little more patient, and once everything is done, sooner or later I'll definitely get to see them right? :) Plus, it's not that bad to be here in JB. Musa, Ubaidah, and Faizul are here. Fara Wahida, Nabilla Iskandar, Imran Marzuk, and later on Fariz will come back here! Yeayyyyyyyyyyyy!

I really have to start working on my Viva (Final project) by now. Been procrastinating the whole day, and now I am here blogging, and not searching for the data that I need. I hope it will rain less tomorrow so that I will be more excited to finish my work. Okay, what is the connection? When it rains, I feel cold. When I am cold, I will be under the blanket all the time. If it's not raining, I can finish my work without any distraction of coldness of anything. Haha, stupid excuse but yeah whatever!

Hmmmm, I'm gonna miss my years in UiTM so much. Agus has been texting me on how sad he is about the society and friends. I feel him, the most. I cried during my last AGM. I cried almost everyday thinking on what would life in University be without them soon. Everything is coming to the end now, but we need to be strong friends! Be strong, Stay Focus! :))

My classmates :')

Now is time to sleep, now is to dream of Shah Alam, now is to dream Encik Bud, Mak Suhar and everyone. Tomorrow is to wake up early, tomorrow is to meet Musa and Faizul, tomorrow is to finish Industry Analysis.

Night, Loves. ^^,

That's what you get when you let your heart win

2010-12-09T04:33:00.004+08:00

She lives in a fairytale somewhere too far for us to find

Forgotten the taste and smell of the world that she left behind

She's ripping wings off of butterflies

This isn't what you wanted

I'm always wrong but you're never right
It's not a dream anymore

Well no sir now I don't wanna be the blame not anymore
It's your turn so take a sit we're settling the final score
And why do we lie to hurt so much?
And why all the possibilities I was wrong?

I know you don't believe me but the world see it
Next time you point a finger I might have to bend it back of break it off
Next time you point you finger I'll point you to the mirror

You treat me just like another stranger
It's nice to meet you sir
We'll I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend

We tried so hard to understand but we can't

We held the world out in our hands and you ran away

It takes some time to let you go and it shows
Cause all we know is falling it falls
Remember how cause I know that we won't forget at all

And the worse part is before it gets any better we're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize that I'm better off when I hit the bottom

If it's not real you can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart and I won't believe it
But if it's true you can see it with you eyes even in the dark
And that's where I want to be

If you wanna play it like a game well come on let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for a whole minute

And when it rains
You always find an escape just running away from everything
You made yourself a bed at the bottom of the blackest hole
And convince yourself that it's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

You look like I did you resist me just like this
You can't tell me to heal it hurts remembering how it felt to shut down

Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never last
We've got to find other ways to make it alone to keep our straight face
And I've always lived like this keep it at a comfortable distance
And up until now I swore to myself that I'm contented with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

I am told that this is life
Pain is just a simple compromise so we can get what we want out of it
You can't turn back because this road is all you'll ever have

Paramore .

So much to say so little time, long time no see and got jitters all the time.

2010-12-04T04:43:00.004+08:00

Hey there.

I used to feel so gloomy everytime this person came across my mind and I would listen to The Fray - How To Save A Life and press the repeat button on the playlist and sing "Where did I go wrong I lost a friend somewhere along the bitterness and I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life."

It was very frustrating to be in that position when the one you trust the most pushed you away.

But then there's something in me that made me make up my mind and decide to see the person.

And these are what happens when you meet the person after a bloody hell one & a half year of not talking because of some undiscovered stupid conflicts.

1. Act like you know nothing about the person's current life when the truth is you do the stalking to keep yourself updated and bookmark all the articles related to him.

2. Very nervous while you're on the way to meet the person until you'll get lost.

3. Have jitters all the time.

4. You'll ask for Coffee when what you really want is Cappuccino.

5. Super awkward, you'll sip the bitter coffee and laugh at yourself and you will talk less.

6. As you talk, the person will stare at you and you can see a pair of shiny eyes.

7. Will be less annoying than you supposed to be and have a fucking weird feelings but you'll love it.

8. Have loads and loads of things to share but just don't know where to start.

9. And at the end of the day you'll realize that you really miss the person despite of everything that happened before.

I think I look cute in this picture haha

10. You will wish to see the person again and that's why you send looooong texts to the person just to make yourself calm so that you can sleep.

Additional stupid behaviour: Because of the eagerness to post this, you'll get confused on which of the tenses that you should use so you decide to just write and ignore all of it and write like a total stupid, plus you forgot to tag the photos with your name like you always did on the photos that was published on your blog before.

Okay, bye!

You can only do better when you know better

2010-11-28T01:51:00.003+08:00

Halo halo halo kopi ka milo?
Ka mau teh ais?
Hehe

Heyya hello everyone
Buat apa itu?
Sudah makan dan minum kah?
Harap harap anda semua berada dalam keadaan sihat sejahtera
:)

2 weeks of holiday
I become my own maid in my house
Yes, cooked for lunch
Prepare the dinner
Do the dishes

I wanna work, but I have to baby sit my sister
Since there's no one at home
I can't leave her alone
I guess no work for me this holiday

Since I did nothing for the past 2 weeks
I have nothing much to post

Oh I remember
During Karisma, I went out with few friends

I went out 2 times
I went out with Syida, Ilham and Azhari
We went to Jusco Bukit Raja and Pak Li
Few photos as they stopped by at my house

And I went out with Nissa and Anne
I met Faiz, Syida and Ilham
And we watched Azhari played soccer

Okay now lepas put up all the photos dah tak tau what to write
So that's all I think

Looking forward to meet Muhamad Syafiq Abd Raub
and Suharshafika Tuban (Mak I miss you!)
Haritu dah buat perangai kirim gambar kat abang suruh hantar kat tempat kerja Bud, I put a note behind the picture mcm org nak mengorat tu, haha and it works! He called me back. :)

Okay loves, toodles!
*Hugs*

Friends are like blood, you don't see them that often but they always comes out when your wounded

2010-11-16T05:22:00.001+08:00

Hello there the angels from my nightmares,

I read posts about the-over-and-done exams all around, so I decided to post something along the line too. Well yes, the final exam is over and done but the heartache lives on inside *sings emotion by DC a bit* until the result is out. I just can't wait for the results. I always have the thoughts of why don't we sit for the exam today and the results will be out tomorrow. Sounds easy right? Okay no, there are piles of answer scripts that the markers have to mark, they're not robot to finish marking asap right? Lol. Or, can I mark my own papers please? Haha, Lol again. All papers were fine this time around, except the last paper which is Finance 327, due to my carelessness, I use the wrong formula to answer a chain question. Okay, I didn't use the wrong formula, it's just that I am not sure whether I have to divide the answer after getting the product or not. I knew how to answer it correctly you know! Because of my tiredness and laziness, I just calculate the products and did not divide the answer *I was so confused and tired back then*. Later, I check back the formula, sigh I was right that I was wrong. So there goes my EIGHT marks. Still it's okay, I hope I will get to achieve my target this time.

Anyway, I manage to meet 2 of my best buds in Kuantan together with my brother and also her 'girl' (haha). Abang knows why I laugh after mentioning his girl. (Need to apologize to Cik Farah Najihah, I didn't get a chance to call you as I was in a rush that night, BB rosak *cracked screen* pakai hp china ni macam babs so dah lambat jadi number pon ke laut). Watched movies after months of not stepping my feet to the cinema ; Takers that made my heart melt and made me fall in love with Chris Brown, and I then I feel like munching Fariz as he really looks a lot like CB. Damn you haha! Had man to man talk with Fariz as well, very refreshing because we've been looking up for it for a long time.

During the period of before the last two calculation papers until the end of exam, I'd been through a lot, just like (heaven), not. Thank God I'm still lucky to have my lovelies (to lazy to mention names, guess you know who you are), those who made my dark days seems brighter. Thanks for the ears, the willingness to entertain and to pamper me and for the hospitality as well. Oh and for the foods, the drinks, plants vs zombies game, and the ice-creams that makes me really happy after all. I'm missing you guys a lot now, sobs. :')

Still, I would take this chance to seek for forgiveness from everyone that I accidentally hurt due to my unpredictable behavior. Yes, this is me, I may be very close to you, but once I'm hurt, I tend to step away as far as I could from you. I'll be okay again when it's time to be okay.

Enough of exams and schools, I'm officially on holiday now. Safely arrived in Bukit Jelutong last night after 4 hours playing Bonny and Clyde with Ainaa darling. Right darling? The ride supposed to be only 3 hours but due to our hmm our lack of concentration on the road I could say, it ends up being a 4 hours ride. Alhamdulillah we are home now. Feel free to ring me up or text me so that we can go anywhere especially Red Box to KARAOKE. If I have the time and the kemampuan, heheh. Btw don't forget to tell me who you are because no names are stored in my china phone. -___-"

Lastly, this Tuesday me and my family will be off to Perak until Friday to celebrate Hari Raya Aidiladha.

Eid Mubarak, Happy Aidiladha to everyone. Night and morning loves.

"Sacrifice a bit, so we can get the best out of it." - adzrndzrh
(dedicated to friends especially those who are celebrating raya di perantauan without their families.)

P/S: SILA BERKORBAN UNTUK HARI RAYA KORBAN :))

Can you lift me up and turn the ashes into flames

2010-11-12T03:06:00.001+08:00

Hello there. Silent night here, not much of the usual night, where we will stay up all night long to study and laugh. Tired of last night I guess. We slept at 630am and woke up at 730am and have to sit for our paper at 9am. Last minute study is paradise. Been doing it through out all the life.

One more paper to go, finance again and again. Next semester will be my final semester, and it's gonna the semester that will torture me most. 5 finance subject for next semester. Hope I can go through it well. As for this semester, I put on a target to achieve 3.7 pointer at least. That is in order to raise back my cgpa. I really wanna have UK to be the place where I'm gonna get my degree. Please God help me, open a path for me please.

I have issues, with friends and house mates. Dear house mates, if you guys read this, yes I have a problem with you. Living in the house, everything should be easy, but we're going through it as hard as it could be. Okay maybe not you guys, but I am. I just hate back stabbers, 2 faces, and so on. Oh come on, we all are grown up right? You don't have to talk bad about someone on his back. Come and face em, have a man to man talk. That's easy. And stop blaming others for God sake. Stand in front of the mirror and look at yourself. You don't have to pretend that you're taking consideration of all the people, but the truth is you're not. You're such a coward. I'm sorry for writing this here. If you read and you don't agree, it's up to you. If you don't feel like talking to me anymore, I don't mind because I don't feel like talking to you too. You said you care about everyone eh? Do you really care about what's happening to me? You don't, and don't pretend you care. Not even once. I choose to back off. You don't have to say good things to me, you don't have to treat me good as well. I just don't need that. I'm not gonna explain even a bit. And looking back at everything, we just can't pin point anyone of us for their wrong doings. Don't act as if you are forever and all the time the right one. You did the same thing too. It's just that when you feel uncomfortable with the situation, you start to blame others and not yourself. That easy? The only thing that makes us this way it THE FACT THAT WE ARE NOT TOLERATING WITH ONE ANOTHER, fullstop.

Lucky me I still have those who turns me down less, they are my shoulders to cry on, endless thanks to you lovelies :')

Long enough for me to blab about something that makes me unhappy, I wish I could go through the remaining days as peaceful as it could be, and then off for holidays to refresh and rejuvenate.

Lots of love :)

Darling, wait until Sunday and we're off to home

Life isn't to be cried but, to be fought for

2010-10-28T13:19:00.004+08:00

Oh Mummy,

But you say we don’t mess around
You've got no freedom to come down
We don't take angels from the sky
You're meant to be among the clouds
Cause you're an angel
But that's a lie

I'm not your angel darling

I'll never gonna be

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I'm just surviving
And I may be weak but I'm not defeated

And I'll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining

For all the things we did wrong, we need to apologize,

For all the things we did that hurts someone, we need to apologize,

For all the things we did without our concern of it, we need to apologize,

For all the bad things we did to our own self, sit back and relax,

And for all the things that we should do but we did not,

We should take the books and start reading now.

It's final examination now,

Why waste time?

Why procrastinate?

Don't chase them, chase your bright future.

Best of luck.

Love Story meets Viva La Vida

2010-10-17T22:42:00.004+08:00

You need to have a sit down with your ego

You're the only one who could make me feel super duper happy

You're the one who could make me extremely sad and depressed

You're the last one that I reach for advise

But the last one is always the right one

I am the one who could turn you on

I am also the one who makes you mad as hell

We used to go together looking after each other

And till then I just died in your eyes

AND WE LIVE IN DENIALS.

You never know what you have until you lose it

2010-10-17T21:47:00.002+08:00

Where's the pain when you walk out the door
It doesn't hurt like it used to before
Where's the love that we couldn't ignore
It doesn't kick like a pill anymore
Where's the thrill at the end of our fights
Where's the heat when we turn off the lights

There’s a dark cloud pulling me in
That’s the girl I was breathing in sin
There’s a blind force letting it win
And it’s longing to tear us apart
I get high when you’re making me weak
Let me down till I crawl on my knees

I wanna crush in your arms at the other side of the world
I wanna die for you cause love is only true if it hurts

I just miss all the mess that we made
When we still have the passion to hate

I miss missing you sometimes
I miss hurting you till you cry
I miss watching you as you try
Try not to end up in tears begging to get back together
I just want you to be stuck in a second forever
So don't freak out and believe
So don’t freak out if I leave

Because I rather hurt than feel nothing at all

2010-10-15T00:37:00.003+08:00

We're just two bunches of stupid

If only I could scream my lungs out

Why do we say stupid things?

I stayed up all night long

Sing when I feel like crying

Cried with all my heart

said I wouldn't call but I loss all control

And that's why I need you, yesterday

Well, yes now again

But don't you worry there my honey

I wouldn't call

Thank you anyway for your sweet thoughts

Go on, live you life.

P/S: If you are reading, what's the band name that you asked me to download the album again? I can't remember so I can't download it. Would be glad if you could just drop the name here, Thanks.

Didn't wanna face the truth, didn't wanna cross that line, until I saw you at the corner of my eye

2010-09-22T00:26:00.002+08:00

Say hello to darlings :)

Hello, welcome to Segamat Johor as well, and assignments, and quizzes, and presentations, and tests, and stresses, and depressions, and also frustrations. LOL.

It's been 2 days here, oh no I wanna go home because my study mode is like no where to be found. Yay me! I can't answer my Finance Quiz this morning. That is sooo ridiculous because the question were easy but the fact that I didn't study AT ALL makes it hard as it can be.

Ahhaaa, our journey to the west this time were a bit challenging. The car we rode broke down somewhere near Nilai exit. Okay, not really broke down but there were smokes coming out from the back of the car (macam dalam filem tau) and we were panic. No, Ainaa was panic. Syida was sleeping while listening to her ipod happily at that time -_-".

Luckily there was a guy, a mechanic to be exact, who happened to pass by our car at the highway, stopped and offer some help. It took us about 2 hours to settle everything as we have to take the car to the workshop, wait for the keys and also the repairman to beautify the flaws of the car and to continue our journey back to Johor. It was fun though! But I never want it to happen again, please God.

The Dolce&Gabbana

Fendi&Madonna enjoying cup corns

And another story,

Since SECRET RECIPE is now officially open in Segamat, finally. This little Madonna was really excited as she could be because according to her, "Of couse I'm excited, SECRET RECIPE in SEGAMAT weh!". Pity this little girl who fell off and got bruises near her ankle. This one is for you darling,

I guess that is all for today, my partner in crime didn't wanna wake up to finish our homework, so I guess I just have to finish it on my own. Booorrinnnggg.

Later, Loves.

Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

2010-09-19T05:18:00.004+08:00

Lemang, ketupat, rendang, kuih raya, and everything nice, mixed in a pot named perut. Make sure it won't explode. Think before you eat. Selamat Hari Raya :)

Hello there, whatcha doin?
How's raya treating you?
Mine, As good as how rendang and ketupat tastes like. ^-^

And I miss this sweet cute baby girl already :')

So, how's your raya?

In a town that’s cold and gray, we will have a sunny day.

2010-09-06T02:53:00.005+08:00

Hello,

Don't let your past hold your future hostage.
Live out of your imagination, not your memory.

A successful relationship is the union of two good forgivers.

I become more by facing my fears, I meet challenge with excitement.

When you surrender your will to Love's will,
Love will do for you what you cannot do for yourself.

The most inspired & fruitful work is done to give and add value
not with expectation of reward.

The outcome of stepping outside your comfort zone is joy.

The past has no place in the present unless you invite it in.

When you realize that you are already worthy, you can stop chasing, start being and let it find you in good time.

Don't worry about if it's perfect, worry if u never start.
You can get better along the way, but only if you start now.

If you're looking for the love of your life, try looking in the mirror.

Usually the worst things that have happened to you are the best things that could happen for you. See the big picture.

Sometimes there's going to be opposition around what's yours.

There is no such thing as a perfect man or a perfect woman.
There is only perfect for each other.

Love doesn't rush. Let Love in.

I'm learning you. :)

Ever ever after, it may only be one wish away

2010-08-26T06:41:00.001+08:00

And no one knows why I'm into you

Cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in our shoes

And no one knows the things we've been through

Can never measure up to half of what I put you through

That's why we'll breakthrough

You are everything in my life, see the joy you bring

And ain't no one I compare you to

And I know that you'll never walk away from me no matter what

And that's why I plan to do the same thing for you

And I want you to know

And I don't care what they say

I'm gonna be with you

And I don't care what they do

I'm gonna be with you

-Be With You

You think you know, but you have no idea

2010-08-25T00:21:00.001+08:00

Hello, it's been a while. :)

I'm tired because of clearing the bushes in front if this blog just now, haha.

So, where do I start? I have a lot to tell, and I can't make a long story short. Any idea?

Wey, tiba tiba tak ada air pulak kat rumah aku ni! Potong betul lah. -_-"

Macam mana nak mandi esok ni? Haih stress stress.

I guess I have to take a bath at Mcd tomorrow. Pfffftt. I'm sure I'm gonna be effing late to class too.

Hmm, I lose words, I need to stop.

Out.

I think you're doing fine,have a good one after a year!

2010-07-27T10:59:00.003+08:00

Hey you!
Happy 1st year break up anniversary!
Oh, and Happy 9th month anniversary to you and her.
Hope you guys are doing fine. ^^

Haha I know it sounds stupid, but we should celebrate it.
It's been a year, never thought that I could make it this far, but I did!
I'm halfway in getting over everything.
I didn't cry for you often anymore.
Okay wait,
I seldom cry for you now,
No no wait,
The last time I cried was umm because
You just popped out of my mind out of the blue
And I saw you on FB and I quite miss you at that time and that was like what?
Once in a few months back.

Hey, you should be glad right?
I hope you're happy for me.
And I hope you're doing fine out there.

Because I think I am . . .
Oh and I think I have someone who cares and to be cared about

So take care dear you.
We'll see each other when the time comes
One day :)

So what’s the plan now?
Are we or won’t we?
So what’s the deal now?
Should we or shouldn’t we?
You’ve taking over my head again
I’m folding each memory in
Asking permission to keep it in your

Empty
When will you love again
Empty is what you are
Without the nice things you had before

So what was it to you
Were we or weren’t we?
Did it come back for you?
Now there you finally see
It’s already been gone too long
I shouldn’t have pick up the phone
I’m asking permission to pretend
That we’ve moved on

Empty
Is what you’ll find in here
Empty
Is you’ll see
I'm out of things to offer you
Concert lights and shiny eyes
Tiny fights and biggest lies

So what am I to you?
Was I or wasn't I?
So what you said was true?
Did you or didn't you?
You're taking over my head again
Unfolding each memory
And asking permission to
Keep in your head

Yuna Decorate - 23rd July 2010

2010-07-25T02:33:00.001+08:00

Tengah hari Jumaat lebih kurang jam 12 belas setengah lebih sikit sebelum pukul 1 tengah hari kami bertolak keluar dari rumah di Segamat Johor, dah halfway perjalanan nak pergi campus to pick up orang aku tersedar yag handphone ku tertinggal di rumah. Hehehe, patah balik lah jawabnya. Terima kasih kepada Encik driver yang berbaju melayu pink kerana sudi mematahkan semula perjalanan seraya balik semua ke rumah. Selepas singgah di campus, singgah di German-tah pula. Eh, silap Jementah. Budak budak yang duduk Jementah tak payah nak rasa macam kat German sangat lah! Hantar driver di rumah dia lalu perjalanan pulang ke Shah Alam di ketuai oleh orang lain pula. Keadaan kereta dan cuaca sangat teruk dan saya memang seperti cacing yang kepanasan lemak lemak habis terbakar kerana suhu di dalam dan luar kereta amat panas tidak dapat nak dinafikan lagi Malaysia ni memang panas lah! Akhirnya jam 5 petang kami selamat tiba di rumah. Alhamdulillah.

Selepas itu pada malam harinya, I mean, before maghrib, aku dan Aween berusaha cari jalan on how to get to KLPAC because I was entitled to get a free ticket for Yuna's Decorate Album Launching and Aween dgn excitednya mahu pergi bersama sama. Oh anyway, Ticket tu dapat because I won the 5th place for the Gadis Semasa Contest. Thanks a bunch for those who liked mine. Yuna said that picture of me and Aween is her favourite! Woohooooo. :D Tak menang first place pon tak pelah.

Oh sambung cerita, around 8 baru kami berdua gerak form our home. Aween from Cheras and saya from Shah Alam. Lembab gila keluar rumah padahal by 830 dah kena collect tickets dah hehe. Nasib baik text Wawa, Yuna's Manager and dia kata it's okay to be late. Setelah berlari lari dan bernervous akhirnya kami tiba juga di KLPAC. Masa redeem the tickets I was a bit excited, when I was about to naik tangga nak pergi pentas 1 Wawa called me and bagi Album for free! Awwww masa tu excited lebih sikit terus lari lari naik tangga. Nak jerit segan sebab sunyi je. The show dah start dah pun when we arrived. Yuna was singing and kitorang cari seat terus duduk diam. Diam macam kayu. Amused with her voice. She's just awesome! Tak rugi lah bersusah payah balik dari Johor terus berkejar kejar pergi cari KLPAC kat ceruk dunia tu!

After Yuna tamat, kawan kawan saya tanpa saya minta datang pick up and bawak pergi NZ tunggu abang saya di situ. Dia kepenatan oleh sebab itu tak mampu nak cari KLPAC di mana. Kawan kawan, saya sayang kamu semua, just because I love you and I can't explain why. Haha love you boys tak kira lah girlfriends korang jealous ke apa. Haha thank you. :')

My journey back home macam disaster. I was really tired, sleeping all the way and terjaga 2 3 kali just to check how abang's is doing and going, takut dia tertidur while driving habislah. And when we reached home, I naik bilik terus, buka jacket and pants then tertidur atas lantai until 4am. Haha sumpah penat gila, lepas tu baru bangun balik, wash up and tidur elok elok atas katil.

After all, last night was really awesome!

I'm not happy, yes I am not happy, today, yesterday, the day before yesterday, no, I am not happy

2010-07-21T23:05:00.001+08:00

Apa entah masalah aku semester ni? Naik semester dah bergaduh dengan kau tak ada motif. Sampai semua orang tau. Lepas tu bila dah baik pun, aku rasa macam tak baik jugak. Aku dah jadi tak faham, aku dah naik meluat dah ni. Aku meluat dengan perasaan sendiri, aku meluat dengan kau, aku meluat dengan semua benda. Aku paling benci bila aku terfikir semua ni. Rasa macam nak tampar kau je pun ada. Aku rasa kau dengan aku lain. Mungkin sebab masing masing dah duduk jauh, dah tak boleh jumpa selalu. Kau pun nampak sangat dah macam tak ada time untuk aku. Tadi bila aku kata kau macam dah tak nak layan aku sangat, kau jawab takkan 24 jam jumpa aku asyik nak kena cakap dengan aku. Haruslah kau cakap dengan aku kalau jumpa 24 jam. Yang ye nya jumpa 2 jam pun kau kejap layan kejap tak. Kau juga yang cakap haritu kau dengan aku dah tak macam dulu. Kau yang cakap macam ada ruang. Ruang apa? Ruang udara? Atau mungkin kau kata ada ruang tapi kau dah siap isi dah ruang tu semula dengan makhluk lain? Maafkan aku sebab aku terpaksa menulis kat sini. Aku nak bercerita dengan kawan kawan aku tentang kau dengan aku pun aku dah penat. Dan kadang kala aku rasa macam tak perlu dan tak patut pun. Aku nak berhenti fikir lagi sebab perkara ni tak akan selesai pun. Kita dah takkan jadi macam dahulu kala lagi dah lah. Percaya cakap aku, kalau aku sahaja yang fikir jalan penyelesaian padahal dalam masa yang sama aku suruh kau cerita apa masalah kau pun kau tak nak tak akan jadi apalah jawabnya. Sekarang apa yang aku boleh buat ialah cuba kawal diri dan perasaan sendiri, buat macam tak ada apa apa jadi. Aku makan hati sorang sorang ni kau sikit pun tak pernah heran. Kan? Bosan. Bila aku cakap kau membosankan sekarang, kau suruh aku pergi dekat kawan kita lagi sorang. Okay, aku pergi, tapi aku tak pergi kat sesiapa pun. Aku pergi kat Miss Intan! Haha. Okay serious balik, aku letih lah. Memang patut pun haritu kan aku tanya boleh ke kalau aku tak nak kawan dengan kau lagi. Apa yang aku maksudkan aku nak kawan dengan kau macam biasa sama macam dengan orang lain. Aku tak payah nak ambil kesah pasal studies kau atau apa apa lah. Masalah kau, kau boleh share dengan orang lain ke? Atau kau boleh suruh orang lain buka student portal kau? And kau boleh suruh orang lain tengok kan subjects kau? Dan kau juga boleh suruh orang lain paksa kau pergi jumpa lecturer serta orang HEA semua. Mungkin boleh kan? Sebab sekarang aku rasa kita dah one step closer untuk jadi lebih jauh. I like. Kau pun ada tanya kau jahat sangat ke sampai aku tak nak kawan lagi? Mungkin aku dah boleh jawab ya sekarang? Mungkin.

Teruskanlah, I can't feel the same about you anymore.

I'll never love again, oh friend you've left me speechless

2010-07-21T02:34:00.000+08:00

After all the things that we've been through would you give it all up?

Hi all.
It's me again, I know it's been a while since I last update this.
Busy and tired, as always.

My first line of this post, is for em.
My errr, should I say a close friend?

The staring of this semester wasn't good, wasn't fun.
Gives me heartache instead.

Only God knows whatever is happening in this world.
All of the sudden we were like not talking to each other.

Arguing about stupid matters.
Not looking at each other.

Luckily it all ends.
Because there's no point on have so much cat fights.

Am I right?
I know I am.

Please be good.
No more not talking period dear S.

TOP 10 PHOTOS "WHO IS GADIS SEMASA?" CONTEST.

2010-07-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

I didn't know that my photo is one of the top 10 photos until yesterday. I was a bit shocked but glad at the same time. I had totally forgotten about this contest that I entered a month ago during semester break. Do help me to increase the number of people who like the photo.

Click here to like the picture on facebook.

It's time to sleep now. Will update about my new life in Johor later!

Night, Loves. :)

Say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

2010-06-27T05:05:00.000+08:00

So, I said goodbye to the place where I had been working from 17th May 2010 until 25th June 2010

Phew, I was allowed to not come to work anymore, at last !

These was very very very tiring I tell you.

Dare to try ?

Met Youth 10's clans today and wandered around Kuala Lumpur with Abang Imran and Kak Ziela, Imran was really tired because baru tiba from Johor Bahru. He posted this on his FB ;

Muhamad Imran Marzuk Walaupn bdn terasa pnt dan letih, demi adk yg sorang ni, xksh pun..;)

Sungguh terharuuuuuuu !

Ziela and Imran

While I was waiting for the train at KL Sentral, saw a balloon that reminds me of something and someone.

Do you remember ?

Later, Loves. ;)

I know you just can't stand it When things don't go your way but, we've got no control over what happens anyway

2010-06-25T01:55:00.001+08:00

Don't pretend you don't know

This is me

I'm unchangeable

My dreams are growing into frustration when I hear your voice

My ears are ringing louder repeating words that bring me down

Feeding me till I'm chocking

I can see the sun setting

It's casting shadow on the sea

I can feel the wind blowing

It's sending shivers down my spine

Everytime we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

You make it easier when life gets hard

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our head
They're just old light

I'm so hard for a rich girl

My heels so high, my eyes cast so low

And I don't know how to love

I get tired after midday, lately

Cause I just can't stay away

There's nothing that I can do

You can have your way

Just as long as I can have you

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park

I asked God who I'm suppose to be

The stars smile down to me

I said a prayer and fall asleep

Now shake your body like you got the jungle fever rushing through your veins

2010-06-19T06:18:00.001+08:00

Berkerja dan kepenatan

Lalu,

Bercuti dan menambah penat!

Youth 10 - The Largest Youth Festival

2010-06-06T00:07:00.006+08:00

How yeah!

Talking about youth nowadays, I wanna share my experience of being the volunteer for Youth 10. It was the most valuable exciting awesome memorable moment that I had in my life. Best best best ! I am so proud of myself, there's no single regret of joining it even though it was very tiring. Okay, I still haven't got my rest since it ends as I continue working as usual after that. No wonder I feel very tired these days. Working for 14 days straight without even a day break is very exhausting right? Don't get shock if the next place you'll be heading to is the Hospital to give me a visit. Lol.

Thursday, 27th May 2010

Work ended at 5pm and I rushed to the nearest KTM station after some wash ups. I wouldn't wanna get into the train with the muffins smell. I was heading to PWTC for our first meeting and briefing at 8pm that night. I was texting with a chinese guy all the way. Knew him from the volunteer's group. He's from Subang and we were talking about meeting and going back home together after the briefing as he drove to PWTC and heading back to the same place as me.

I also text Paca as he said hes kinda malas to join towards the end. After figured out that we got into the same team, I told him that if his not coming for the briefing, I'll let him know if there's anything important.

To kill the time before the briefing starts, I wander around The Mall and score a red casing for my bb and I went for dinner. As I was waiting for Ivan to reach PWTC, Paca called me up said hes there but he just wanna get the tees and won't come on the next day. Bongok!

I was in welcoming team, same as Paca and briefing was all about having a tour around the event place, diving us into smaller groups and assigning task on what to do and how to work. After that, home.

Friday, 28th May 2010

Woke up to the sound of Ivan's call. He was very early man, and the picked me up at the hotel and off we go, by train together with Fyna and Amzar.

After changing attire and some briefing, the door was finally open at 10am.

"Welcome to Youth 10"

Had been saying that through out the event for countless time! Lol.

Friends who came:

Khalid Ali
Hilmi Samad
Nuraini Tuti
Aween Zulkifli
Zul Haiqal
Sofia Syazana

Hot FM's kita punya concert that night was okay. I got home around 12am that night.

Saturday, 29th May 2010

Reach PWTC a bit late, wasn't suppose to work that morning but was there to help them while waiting for friends to come.

Bought a pair of shoes for a friend.
(Oh bunyi dia sungguh gedik, fineee.)

Bought a pair of shoes for Bud as he merengek nak sangat.

That night's concert was One FM's so I didn't join as it was from most of the chinese singer. I get home a bit early and Bud & Suhar come over to try and pick the shoes. That time Bud lagi gedik! Oh just so you know, he was very excited as he got the shoes he even wore it to sleep that night! Silly guy lah weeh!

I also bought Gha her birthday present there :DD

Friends who came:

Fariz Salleh
Ungkurak King
Farah Najihah
Suharshafika Tuban
Syafiq Raub
Amirul Al Hafiz
Shahir
Azie Syazwani
Nurzaidah Amanina
Fatin Nabilah
Haimi Eryn
Hilmi Samad

Sunday, 3oth May 2010

Last and most tiring day for Youth 10. Reach there late again which is at 10am. There's not much work to do since it was the last day and most of the visitors had claimed their passes on the day before.

Spent most of the time taking pictures with others, had lunch with Johan, went up tp enjoy the event with Imran and Amzar and as I get down, I was approached to help them to escort Yuna. Waited for Yuna to arrive and the escorted her to the Music Festival, after that back to the Libresse booth, controlled the crowd for her autograph session, and escorted her back down.

Relaxed for an hour or so in the room behind the registration counter, went up again for the Fly FM's Campur Chart Goes Live concert as insisted by Audra, our volunteers leader.

I was extremely tired but gone crazy during the concert! Most of the volunteers did.

After the wrap up, off to home we go. Bud picked me up as he had promise because it was the condition in order to get him the shoes before. Lol.

Friends who came:

Khalid Ali
Juliana Natasha
Emma Soraya
Izzu Aziem
Sakinah Hafidz
Yai Afzal

Click here for Youth 10 Photo Album :)

The guy with white shirt is Joel the CEO, Audra is in the middle of 2 guys wearing red.

I am so happy because I have new friends now.
I mean, loads of new friends!
Love yaaaaaa!

:DD

You left and sailed away alone and now you got me trapped up on this island

2010-05-27T03:01:00.001+08:00

Takut tak if it happens to you? I mean macam what my title says lah kan. Stranded on a land sorang sorang. Freakky gila okay!Now tengah dengar Solo by Iyaz. Dia yang nyanyi the title ni. Macam suka the song since terdengar several times at work place. :)

Oh lupa nak greet. Hi all! Hi Hi Hi! Hi 5!

So, it's 230am now and I masih belum tidur. Tunggu email from Audra of Youth 10 regarding which team I will be in. Fuyoo jadi volunteer weh! I decided to join the volunteer team sebab nak gain experience. Dengan beraninya saya join seorang diri ya kawan kawan. Ulang suara, SEORANG DIRI. Hahaha sebenarnya eager nak dapat T-shirt dia. Lagipon memang sejak azali lagi diri ini memang suka men-joinkan diri untuk jadi committee for events. Bila lagi nak dapat chance kan kan? Dan bak kata En Basaruddin Koordinator Program Dip. In Investment Analysis Uitm Johor yang sekarang dah tak jadi KP saya lagi dah tu, ' Keluar dari COMFORT ZONE anda.' dan saya sedang keluar lah ni bangg! Eh? Bang pulak dah haha. Wish me luck ye kawan kawan. Kalau based on our group of the volunteers ni semua macam very supportive and friendly. Tu belum jumpa lagi. Dah jumpa nanti tah tah kaki gaduh. Hahaha ( Mintak simpang ) .

Pagi nanti kerja macam biasa lah. Bangun pagi dan pergi kerja but balik awal maybe, because tomorrow night ada briefing at PWTC. Have to go so that senang nak berkawan nanti kan. Takde lah blur blur pagi Jumaat nanti. Wah macam tak percaya je minah ni semangat. Harap harap saya berjaya ( finger crossed ) Meoowwww~

Hari hari buat muffin ni sampai dah naik jemu dah. Nasib baik lah minat baking kalau tak sure dah give up awal awal lagi. I still remember mula mula dulu tolong Don Hazim saja saja suka suka kat Johor tu, dah lama lama jadi pekerja tetap pulak. Dapat gaji, lepas tu mama dia kata kat Johor saya dah jadi Senior Supervisor. Tapi memang penat lah kan teringat masa keluar pusing satu Segamat cari kedai kek beli barang barang untuk bancuhan tu semua dengan Azfar and Adud yang tak tau apa apa. Hahaha. Bila kerja kat Shah Alam ni dah turun pangkat sikit, sebab ada yang lagi senior. Tapi apa aku heran kan? Kerja je lah dengan budak budak tu, walaupon stress sebab suka cari pasal kenakan aku itu ini. -_-"

Oh, kalau sesiapa teringin nak makan muffins or cheese tarts or jam tarts or cookies sila lah datang bawah escalator depan stage dalam PKNS sebelah kedai Celcom. Or if teringin nak bau susu basi sila fetch saya selepas kerja jam 7petang. Sumpah time tu bau kat baju dah kacau bilau bercampur chocolate, vanilla, blueberry, cheese, cookies, pendek kata SEMUA BAU ada lah!

Audra ni lambat lah, dah almost 3am. Nak kena tidur nanti bangun lambat lagi, masuk kerja lambat lagi, kena sound lagi, haha tapi buat bongok je lah. Kedai aku kan? Miahahahaha :DD

Pagi nanti kot dapat email tu kan kan? Okay lah.

Ni schedule Youth 10, pilihlah event mana mahu pergi dan hari apa.

See you there ^^

Night night, Loves. :)

Kalau rasa rasa nak cookies ni sila lah datang bertandang ke work place ku, tapi jar tu ada kat Putrajaya Outlet, Shah Alam kitorang letak dalam Tong je haha. Rasa still sama, don't you worry. :D

Life isn't good or bad. Just do the best you can.

2010-05-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

(22122007)

Hey Love,
Don't look so down
I'm sure in time you'll find
What you've been longing for

Hey Love,
What's with the long faces
I know you're probably feeling jaded
Like love had faded away
Don't think for a second that you have anything to do with it

So keep your eyes off the hands of the clock
Don't be so quick to fall in love
Cause girl you're one of a kind no worries, don't you worry
Cause your dreams will soon be reality

Hey You,
I know it's been quite rough but your luck will eventually change
And you will love again

Oh darling,
Don't let it get you down
Cause somewhere around
Your true love will come around

- Hey Love by AB.

P/S: Meowwwwwwww~ :D

Live life without regrets.

2010-05-25T00:51:00.001+08:00

You only live once but if you live it right, once is good enough.

Allyssa Bernal - All I Need

I thought of you today when I looked up at the sunset in the sky
Cause when I was still at home that use to be something
we loved to see together

I felt you near today when I watched our favorite movie all by myself
And then I smiled today when I saw my favorite picture of us

I know I'm so far away from you
But I know I don't have to search high and low to see you again

It's so easy missing you cause you're going through my head a million times a day

But I'm okay when you say you're doing the exact same thing

No matter where I go, no matter where I'll be, you'll be here always
Cause it's our memories that tag along with me and that's all I need
That's all I need..

Rindu kamu kanak kanak yang sedang hangat bercinta ! :D

I remember years ago someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love, I did

2010-05-23T23:40:00.001+08:00

Penat sangat sangat, balik kerja terus makan, selepas itu naik atas dan berehat sebentar, selepas berehat mandi malam, kemudian jika ada keperluan dan kerajinan switch on laptop, jika tidak terus berehat di pembaringan ( bunyi mcm kat kubur ok takut ) selepas goodnight kat orang itu orang ini, tekan screen kecil sepuas hati, dengar lagu sehingga tertidur, bangun bangun dah pukul 853am ( alarm berbunyi ) tekan snooze 5 minutes selepas itu tidur semula, pabila sudah terjaga mandi mandi dan siap, ambil kunci kereta and off to work.

PENAT NYA HARI HARI ULANG THE SAME ROUTINE!

Kat work place lagi lah penat macam tau fu faaa hancur. :/

Encik Bloggybusbratus, kita jumpa lain kali ye?
Maafkan saya kekasih hakptuih.

Sometimes we just have to accept that this is life and sometimes it’s really hard, but we always somehow make it through.

2010-05-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

It's impossible to make magic if you're too busy making excuses.

NOW

is the new later!

Just do it!

Je suis tres fatigant

but, I won't give up :)

Pilih lah nak yang manaaaa ?

^_^V

I'm tugging at my hair, pulling my clothes, I'm trying to keep my cool, I know it shows

2010-05-13T18:30:00.001+08:00

Believe me I won't stop at nothing

To see you so I've started running

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you

And after laughing all night long, I woke up in the evening.

Again and again, it is all because of you.

I blame you as always, haha.

Your fingertips across my skin, the sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick

2010-05-13T18:02:00.004+08:00

Once upon a time
We had a lot to fight for
We had a dream we had a plan
Sparks in the air
We spread a lot of envy
Didn't have to care once upon a time

Remember when I swore
That love was never ending
That you and I would never die
Remember when I swore
We had it all

Sail away it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
Fade away the night is calling my name
You will stay I'll sail away

Once upon a time
We used to burn candles
We had a place to call a home
The dream that we lived was better than divine
Everyday was like a gift once upon a time

Remember when you swore
Your love was never ending
That you and I will never die
Remember when you swore
We had it all
We would never fall

Sail away it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
Fade away twilight's calling my name
You will stay I'll sail away

No reason to lie
No need to pretend
I'm grateful to die
To live once again
I'm fearless to fly
And reach for the end

You can talk all you want but my skin is really thick

2010-05-11T12:12:00.003+08:00

Who was the last male you talked to?

Bud

Who is someone that can always make you laugh?

Haha, you know who

What were you doing at 10am this morning?

Sleeping

What were you doing an hour ago?

Still sleeping

Do you plan on moving within the next year?

I just moved out to a new place in Johor

Are you wearing anything on your feet?

Do you remember your dreams?

Most of the time

Where did your last hug take place?

Giant, as I met Miss Musjahida wooohooo

Have you been to a baby shower?

What cell phone company do you use?

RIM

What color is your hair brush?

Purple and white

Do you watch the Super Bowl?

Nehi hey

What about World Cup?

Eager to watch ! Go Brazil !

Do you sleep with a teddy bear?

Yes, and a cow too

What is the last movie you watched?

Edward Scissorhands

What movie do you think everyone should watch?

The Karate Kid

What is your middle name?

Nice :)

What brand is your computer printer?

Epson ? Oh I can't recall

How many cars can fit in your driveway?

Basically one but sometimes two

Who was your Kindergarden teacher?

Teacher Azura

Are you taller than your mom?

Yes yes

Do you have any bruises right now?

I don't think so

Are you cold right now?

Yessssssssssss!

Do any of your close friends have kids?

Hmm, yes

Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now?

Yes and yes

How many years older and younger than you are you willing to date?

3 for older and only 1 for younger

What brand are your favorite jeans you own?

My fav for the time being, Giordano

Do you look more like your mom or dad?

A bit of both I think

Do you have an iPod or Mp3 player?

I have Shaun's ipod with me, eh no it's with syida now and I left my mp3 in the lab so it got stolen

Who was the last person in your bedroom?

Kak Jah

What are your plans for this weekend?

Go to SSP with si gila to visit anis, watch movie at Amalanda, haha okay Alamanda

Have you ever crawled through a window?

Neehh

Do you lose your keys often?

Nope

When was your last encounter with the police?

Last year

Do you always wear your seatbelt in the car?

Only if I am the driver or I'm in the front seat

Could we fix you if you broke?

2010-05-11T02:10:00.001+08:00

And I know that it's complicated
But I'm a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

- Speechless, Lady G

It's not fair and it's really not okay

2010-05-10T03:19:00.001+08:00

Take me, this is all that I've got, this is all that I'm not, all that I'll ever be

2010-05-02T01:34:00.002+08:00

Hello darlings. It has been 2 days since my previous paper. Been relaxing and haven't touch the book yet to study for the upcoming paper. It's okay right? I just need some time to relax after being stressed out. :)

I feel bored so I decided to play with the webcam and I'm gonna show off the pictures that I took. Kalau nak tengok sila lah, if not jemput lah tekan button X berwarna merah on top right tu okay ? Haha.

Hi, this is me :D

This is what I'm wearing, Lol. I bought this tee simply because what's written on it. You go girl, and don't come back !

This is from Miss Didee for my 20th birthday. Haven't got a name for em yet. Any idea?

Meet Mr Moo Moo. My girlfriends gave me this as a birthday present in 2009. Push him and he'll mooooo you~

Baby, he's 3 years old ++ now. I'm so glad but he's like Benjamin Button. He's growing backwards, getting smaller and smaller. Birthday present in 2007.

From Anis my sister, 16th birthday's present. Used to be my phone and money keeper back in school. Sampai dah koyak koyak.

My lovely bantal busuk. She's my pillow to cry on, can't sleep without her. We had once been apart for 3 months and rasa mcm nak gila. Lepas tu tak pernah berpisah lagi. :')

2 cats of mine. They had been protecting my feet every night for yearsss. Thanks you babies!

My stripey blanket, keeps me warm.

The name is bantal sejuk. Given by Farah Izyan because bantal tu sejuk eventhough the weather is hot. Best kan ?

Ini bantal kepala saya. Lavender Therapeutic Pillow. Kiranya my therapist lah ni!

Okay these are almost everything that I sleep with everyday. Can't sleep without each one of em. :)

And ohhh, my Beebee fell out of the car last Thursday because I was very busy laughing and I didn't realize that he's on the road! He got some scratches now. ;/

Sobs sobs -_-"

Haha, that's all. I'm out now!

Goodbye Lovelies.

Love is in the air~

Everybody is watching you, everybody is watching me too

2010-04-30T05:53:00.001+08:00

I'm a Gorgeous Geek

Good mourn, Loves.

Anyway, thanks Farah Najihah.

So hard to be, so far away.

2010-04-28T04:04:00.000+08:00

Morning.

I feel like I'm losing sparks in writing. I've been trying to post something for few days but I will always end up turning off the pc and do something else. I don't know. Maybe the pressure of the exams made me this way. I'm alone in my room. Should have been sleeping by now, but I'm still trying my best to write something. A short update will do. I hate the thoughts that keeps lingering in my head nowadays. The person to be exact. Hope it will fade away as soon as possible because it's making me sick. I'm having Malaysian Economy paper on Thursday and I am totally upset with my current performance for the paper. I'm hoping for at least a B for the paper, but I doubt that I could have it that way. I just can't penetrate into the wall of the subject. I was told that the paper is an easy paper and it's easy for us to score. Knowing my lecturer, I haven't got a chance to even believe what they told. Blame me, I don't know what else to do. I'm a person who focus in class and did not study after class unless for examination purpose. What am I suppose to do? I need to rest my mind.

I'm half glad half unhappy.

We'll meet again, Loves.

I think I am moving one step forward as to 26 & 27.

Nothing happened, just the stupid thoughts.

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe, shine like gold, buzz like a bee, just the thought of you can drive me wild !

2010-04-25T16:20:00.001+08:00

Kacau betul lah !

Baru bersegamat, eh silap,

baru bersemangat nak update blog tiba tiba nak terkencing.

Sebentar ya Mr A B C D.

Back.

Phewww :p

Exam mood is on yawww ! :D

As always, last minute preparation is soooo me.

This morning ada paper Finance 329 ; Investment Management.

In 2 days saya cuma tidur 8 jam sahaja.

Itu pun satu jam setengah sahaja tidur untuk hari pertama.

Selebihnya tu tidur di hari kedua, mabuk terus !

Paper ni masa Test 1, sorang je in my class lulus.

Second test, 6 orang tak silap including me, Alhamdulillah.

Tapi, paper pagi tadi ?

Pass ke tak ? Pass ke tak ?

Carry mark macam Curry Mak je ! Hahaha

Biarlah, tawakal sahaja lah kerana dah berusaha kan.

(Ceh, padahal tak sungguh sungguh pon.)

This Tuesday gonna face Marketing pula.

Okay kot this subject, kena score A !

If not pointer drop

DROP

Oh noooooooooooooo !

NO !

Paper lain semua kena score in order to back up paper Finance ni !

Ingat tu kawan-kawan ?

That day dah ambil semangat exam form En you .

Exam month ni teringat . . .

Kenangan manis kau dan aku, lalalala. (tak tau lirik dah)

Haha :D

Bukan teringat apa,

teringat time eS Pi eM ^^

Ada orang jaga,

Bagi supplement Pharmaton sebotol,

Dia share dia punya yang mama dia bagi,

Hari-hari kena makan pagi-pagi di kelas before pergi dewan,

Telan dengan air milo~

Depan dia :')

Okay, tamat sesi berangan. -_-"

Tonight got Kelly Clarkson's Concert

All I Ever Wanted Tour

I soooooooooooooo wanna go !

:'(

Semua salah Kelly !

Kenapa datang time saya exam ?

Penat saya hafal satu Album lagu lagu awak tau.

Merajuk lah macam ni !

Tak nak kawaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnn. :/

Haha, bangang !

So sad kan Alia Atira ?

Takpe lah, see you in my dreams Kelly Clarkson.

Hmm, now nak sleep.

Kalau boleh lah kan ?

Tata for now, Loves.

P/S: There are 2 words guys hate; Don't and Stop. . . unless those words are spoken together. #ihatequotes
:DD

I don't want you to see the truth in me

2010-04-15T02:54:00.001+08:00

We don't have to be in love

We can just be friends

I will be right there

Beginning to the end.

Missing each one of you

and all of you

and more of you

and you too, gang bang!

uhuh, mereka ini juga!

Can't wait for semester break.

P/s : Alia Othman, aku tak boleh nak reply comment kau tah kenapa tah connection kat Johor ni. Lol. Plus, aku rindu kau jugaaakkk !

Aku ada kebolehan luar biasa sebab senang ingat memories. Every inch of it, be it 5 tahun lepas.

2010-04-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

Good evening.

Petang yang panas. Tapi today I can still bear with the weather. Less panas than semalam. Still I'm sweating now. Petang ni tak tidur pon. Sebab teruja tadi lepas Hi-tea, balik bilik and terus get online using wireless. Since dia laju, jadi saya pon buka youtube dan dengar lagu lagu. Dah almost 2 hours dengar lagu Do you remember?, now baru beralih arah dengar lagu Baby.

Petang ni nak berceloteh panjang. Nak cerita tentang seseorang. Sekejap ye, nak buka lampu bilik.

Oh, dah pukul 7pm rupanya. Okay.

Cerita bermula. Siapa seseorang ni ? Dia makhluk Tuhan. Rasa macam nak sebut nama, tapi risau nanti menimbulkan isu dengan orang orang yang tak tentu. Manalah tau kan if and only if dia bukak blog aku which I doubt pon. But still, tak perlu kot. Okaylah, nama samaran, S.

S, masa mula mula kenal was my classmate for last semester. Now pon still my classmate and we sorta like bestfriend. Yeke? Entah aku pon tak sure. Mula mula rapat dulu main main je because this one day masa bulan puasa last year I was on my way back from Penawar (clinic in my uni), saya dan farah dan syida terserempak with a bunch of our guy friends. Kebetulan petang tu we're going out for buka puasa at somewhere somewhere with all of our classmates and saja je cakap "I wanna sit beside you lah S nanti masa makan". Padahal tak pernah bercakap with dia pon before, and we did. That was the start.

Entah macam mana boleh rapat and last semester ada lah we stayed up at 24hours room dua orang to study finance, went out for breakfast, dinner and lalala. Aku pon tak pasti mcm mana semua tu boleh terjadi. Tiba tiba during semester break dia diam je. Each time aku text sure busy. Sure sure surely busy lah ! And if aku call pon macam duhhh, aku nak ckp apa je dgn kau? So aku selalu decide baik aku call antara 2 S lagi yang aku ada instead of calling this S. Okay wait, kenapa aku cakap pasal kau ni ??

Ahh, sambung je lah. Bila masuk this semester, aku tak keen sangat pon nak jumpa S ni since masa cuti tak rapat kan, so mesti lah malas. But then first night kat sini aku terserempak dgn dia, masa tu dia nak pergi makan kat cafe lain, aku on the way pergi makan kat tempat lain. Tiba tiba aku tgh duduk nak makan, tersedar yang dia dah ada kat belakang aku. Like seriously terkejut mcm rasa apa kau ni tadi nak makan kat tempat lain apsal dtg sini? Dia kata tiba tiba kawan dia nak makan situ, okay whatever.

Lah, perlu ke aku mengarut benda tu? Haha macam takde motif je apa aku ckp ni? Okay lah sebenarnya nak cerita ni haa. Sekarang kitorang macam biasa lah rapat kat class, after class dia tunggu jap pastu balik pastu makan ke pastu gaduh pastu merajuk ke. Thing is dia ada, hmm okay tiba tiba aku rasa aku tak patut post benda ni. Dah lah aku nak stop je. S, dah lah I don't wanna talk about you anymore. Apa nak jadi jadilah. Kau stay lah dengan kekecewaan melanda kau tu kalau tak nak bagitau yinn sangat kan. About apa yang yinn ckp siang tadi, yinn rasa tak perlu kot tanya kat hati mahupun buah pinggang apatah lagi hempedu sebab benda tu takde isu pon. Merapu je semua tu.

Kalau Jumaat pagi ni kita still balik sama sama kita balik je lah. I'm gonna act cool je, takkan tanya lagi pasal apa apa. Dalam train tu yinn nak jalan jalan je tak nak duduk. You sit alone, and bila dah sampai yinn nak tunggu Encik S yang lebih gila yang suppose to pick me up tu datang okay?

Adzrin Nadzirah, Diamlah !

I've been thinking about you and how we used to be

2010-04-14T02:24:00.000+08:00

There's nothing left to say

Don't waste another day

Do you remember ?

Hello world.

It's been a long time since my last update. How am I coping up ? I'm doing well. Life is okay. Okay, only okay. Not more or less.

Sekarang rasa macam incomplete. Entah kenapa. Kenapa ? Kalau aku kata aku nak bercinta lagi, orang kata aku gedik. Aku pon tak habis pulih lagi. Belum sembuh sepenuhnya. Kejap kejap toleh belakang lagi. Jadi, takde maknanya kalau aku kata aku nak bercinta pon kan ?

Habis tu aku nak apa ? Apa yang incomplete ? Entah, aku pon tak tau. Nak kata tak ada orang teman aku hari hari, ada je. Still, aku rasa sunyi. Aku nak apa ni ? Nak makan ? Dah cukup bulat dah ni. Aku naik ber kilo kilo kilo, terima kasih. Abang kat kedai Noor Arfa Batik kat Dataran Pahlawan kedai depan mesin timbang tu tau berat aku naik berapa kilo. Dia siap bagitau kawan dia kuat kuat lagi hahaha.

Hmm, this one goes to you. I know, you'll find me when you need me. Yes, I am always here to listen to you. Glad to see that you're over me while I am still not totally over you. As I told you, secara zahirnya, I am strong but, secara batinnya, belum 100% lagi. When you called and talked about this and that, asking for opinions, telling me this and that, I realized that you're doing very well out there, without me.

I should deeply understand that you need me as your best friend.

God, please take me far away from falling for him again.

Tamat bahagian Emosi.

Final exam is juuuuuuusssssssstttttttt around the corner. Jangan kata lah cuak dia macam manaa. Encik Bud asyik cakap tak boleh jawab test ni tak boleh jawab test tu, aku ni lagi tah macam mana apa nak jadi pon tak tau. Setiap kali test mmg lah cakap okay, tapi setakat Okay je lah kan ? Mak (Suharshafika) , kalau result kami tak mencapai target Mak maafkan je lah ye ?

Persoalan besar dalam hidup saya buat masa ni.

Mampu ke nak dapat Dean's List lagi ?

Mampu ke nak dapat 3.5 and above lagi ?

Semua dah kucar kacir ni. Dengan panas nya, setiap kali tidur dah macam tidur sambil jogging dah. Berpeluh jangan cakap lah. Penat tak habis habis sebab panas. Jangan harap lah nak berjaga dengan tenang waktu siang. Duit, baru dapat 300ringgit dah tinggal 100ringgit. Makan duit ke apa aku ni ? Duit subsidi Uitm bagi dah tinggal 600sen. Makan sangat mahal masa kini. Masalah betul.

Apa lagi aku nak bebel ? Dah lah malas dah sebab aku rasa I will keep on mengeluh je if sambung. Kan? Oh anyway, this Friday I'm coming home. At last, setelah habis sebulan. Nak minta restu from family je, because nak final exam kan.

Tambah sikit, I got backache. Sakit gila tak tau nak describe macam mana sebab tadi keluar from toilet I slipped and almost fell down tapi tangan berjaya tahan daripada my ass terhentak ke bumi. Sebagai result kepada perbuatan itu, tulang belakang sangat sakit.

Okay, I'm off. Bye bye, Loves,

I just need your hug in which could make me calm

2010-03-31T04:08:00.001+08:00

Level of stress is now full in the tank.

Sorry saya tak dengar arahan untuk pergi tidur.

I just can't help it.

I know right, I should just listen to you and go to sleep.

But, what if the thing won't get fixed?

Sigh.

Lagi satu benda pelik.

Dalam aku stress stress ni boleh terdengar lagu JB.

I'm not into him, AT ALL.

I think I like it, Baby.

Because the song somehow is making me a bit calm now.

Baby, baby, baby, thought you'd always be mine.

VIVA, belum start apa lagi, Thursday nak kena submit dah.

OMG Syida jangan baca please. *finger crossed*

Now, I still don't feel like sleeping.

Dah dengar the birds chirping now.

Pakcik gila tau mesti kena maki hamun.

Tadi dah kena dah, apa bodohnya lah.

Bb, why now ?

Why today ?

Efff !

Depressed enough ?

Morning, Loves.

I’m taking a moment just imagining that I’m dancing with you

2010-03-30T11:34:00.001+08:00

Haa amik dah berapa lama aku tak update blog.

Faktor faktor tak update blog?

1. Busy

2.Busy

3.BUSY !

Okay aku tipu je. Haha. Tak update sebab busy tu memang lah bak kata pakcik gila tu, aku ni mama sunyi berpersatuan (macam bab*). Lol. Aku busy handle event (patut aku amik course event management je lah), busy dengan testsssis eh silap, testsssss yang bersusun susun dan tak beri peluang langsung kerana di celahi dengan assessments dan assignments yang berbukit bukau. Phewww! Type dan baca je dah penat, apatah lagi nak settle kan semua tu kan ?

Seterusnya, aku tak update blog sebab broadband je ada, sim card mana ada pon. Ada kat rumah tu haa tah macam mana boleh tinggal tah. Nasib baik ada Bb sayang, dapat jugak mengisi kebosanan. Tu yang kadang kala tak sentuh pon En C ku ini. ;) Terima kasih Bb !

Aku tak patut update blog pon sekarang ni sebab aku sepatutnya BACA BUKU. MALAM NI ADA LAW TEST. Ahhhh, aku tak kira aku nak gak tulis. Sape kesah? ( bak kata anis adik aku haha. ) Sekejap lagi aku baca buku tu, jangan risau lah. Sempat punya. InsyaAllah.

Semalam aku dapat MC for the first time dalam sejarah kat Uitm ni haa, itu pon sebab aku mintak kat MA tu. Aku punya kaki bengkak pon dia boleh tanya kenapa tak masuk class? Kau ingat aku robot ke nak turun tiga tingkat naik balik 4 tingkat. Menyeksakan jiwa je lah sebab jalan dah macam siput, pukul berapa nak sampai class macam tu? Alhamdulillah hari ni kaki dah okay sikit.

Jadual exam dah keluar, dup dap dup dap ( bunyi apa ni pon aku tak pasti. ) Aku dah kena focus study ni, tak leh main main dah ni haa. Adoimak ! Course registration untuk next semester pon dah boleh buat. Fuyoo, next sem dah Part 5. One step closer to the end. Tak sabar nya nak lariiiiii ! :D

Okay lah dah cukup kot aku membebel ni.

Mock meeting

snow boy on beach

gambar paling gedik dengan abang macho for the night! Haha!

Dengan adik adik sayang tapi still I'm the smallest

Drift @ UiTM Johor

Penonton yang tak gemar dirft pon sebenarnya. High 5!

Jadi tamatlah sudah sesi meng-update blog pada kali ini. Kita berjumpa di hari dah waktu yang lain. Semoga berjaya dalam kehidupan! Bye bye, Loves. :)

And by protecting my heart truly, I got lost in the sounds

2010-03-17T02:19:00.002+08:00

Hello sayangs ! Rindu nyaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! It's been a while I didn't update this blog. Kesian dia, I abandoned you kan Mr Bloggy. I was soooooooooooooo BUSY ! Alhamdulillah everything dah settle. Pheewww, lega !

Banyak sangat cerita I tak update. Opkim at JB, My Birthday, Tests, Assignments, Minggu Terbuka Kolej, and English Week. Best tau cerita semua benda but now I'm gonna update about last weekend. Tak nak cerita pon about this but sibuk sangat lah satu manusia ni suruh update. "Apa apa pon awak kena tulis jugak pasal haritu !". Eeee, gedik! So now yelah ceritalah pasal last weekend.

English Week ends on Thursday evening. While I tengah penat penat, maghrib tu Orang Gila called me, pastu dia cakap cakap cakap and He said, "Balik, malam ni jugak, lalala itu ini blablabla". So malam tu I pon balik lah, my roomate hantar to KTM. Tiket train for 2am dah habis, and I naik lah illegally. Before that train sampai, at 230am Orang Gila called me lagi and I tanya dia balik ke tak and then gaduh gaduh bongok because I tak percaya yang he balik. Pendekkan cerita, 630 I sampai KL Sentral. I text him and then he said dia kat McD. I thought dia tipu, and then I bising bising pastu I keluar from McD rupanya dia ada kat tepi. Mangkok !

We had breakfast and igtkan nak watch movie but then around 9 something ke 10 entah I don't remember we decided to go back because mengantuk je dua dua menguap menguap. And then baliklah kami. Oh ni gambar kami kat KTM Batu Tiga.

sweatshirt sama, sibuk je!

On Saturday, all of us (Me, Hani, Fariz, Faizal, Syue, Suhar, Bud and Khalid) went to Sunway Pyramid. I'm gonaa let the pictures do the talking ! :)

the picture that I like most, credit to Syue ;)

Okay lah, the end. Good Night. Bye bye, Loves.

Terima kasih cinta, terima kasih banyak banyak :/

2010-03-07T04:41:00.001+08:00

No boot device.

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Sakit jiwa bila harta yang paling penting broke down in the midst of something that is really important. Bukan something je lah, BANYAKthing lagi to be finished. Assignments nak buat di mana ? Harta Farah Izyan ini je lah boleh guna. Still banyak masalah, mula mula pinjam No Antivirus -.-" Dah tolong dowloadkan, now still hang lah itu lah ini lah. But then, harta orang. Dah kira baik lah dia nak bagi pinjam kan ? Terima seadanya. Harta ku, nanti mak hantar pergi clinic, kita suruh Doctor ubat bagi sembuh okay. Mak sakit tak ada kau !

Nowadays sangat busy. Busy mentally and physically. Sibuk cari wang mata pencarian, kerja kuat dah 3 hari. Muffin, Muffin, Muffin ! Cari duit ni bukan nya senang. Buat business bukan setakat nak fikir ada atau tak ada masa. Masa tu sentiasa ada. The thing that matters is "Kau pandai bahagikan masa kau ke tak ?" . Ini passion aku, terima kasih sebab tak halang aku nak buat kerja wahai kawan-kawan. Maafkan aku sebab sangat busy. Jangan paksa aku untuk tidak buat apa yang aku nak. Aku tahu apa yang aku buat.

P/S : Okay, sakit jiwa dah. Makin terukkkk !

That's where i've been and nothing's changed

2010-03-03T01:52:00.003+08:00

Let's paint the picture of a perfect place

They've got it better than what anyone's told you

They'll be the King of Hearts and you're the Queen of Spades

And we'll fight for you like we were your soldier

I know we've got it good but they've got it made

And the grass is getting greener each day

I know things are looking up but soon they'll take us down

Before anybody's knowing our name

They've got all the right friends in all the right places

So yeah, we're going down

We've got all the right moves and all the right faces

So yeah, we're going down

They said everybody knows where we're going

Yeah, we're going down

Do you think I'm special ?

Do you think I'm nice ?

Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces ?

Between the noise you hear and the sound you like

Are we just sinking in an ocean of faces ?

It can be possible that rain can fall

Only when it's over our head

The sun is shining everyday but it's far away

Over the world it's said

It don't matter what you see

I know I could never be someone that looks like you

It don't matter what you say

I know I could never face someone that could sound like you

All the right friends in all the wrong places

So yeah, we're going down

We've got all the right moves and all the wrong faces

So yeah, we're going down

He smiles politely back at you, you stares politely right on through

2010-02-26T16:52:00.000+08:00

Am listening to The Fray now. Reminds me of my friends of which yang dah tak bertegur sapa or jarang jarang tegur tu lah especially. -.-"

"Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness."

Now in the bus, on the way to Johor Bahru with mates semua. Baru nak masuk tol. Damn the condition of the bus teruk. Nak sleep pon cannot so Adam offer nak online ke and I pon say okay lah and now writing lah for this post. Bus ni panas panas panas ! Sighhhh.

This is Adam Lotfy :)

Dia tengah sibuk dengan Ipod now. We nyanyi nyanyi je lah since cannot sleep. Naguib and Wawa dah selamat tidur after sibuk rebut my bantal busuk. Lol.

Less than one day je lagi ni I'm gonna be TWENTY. Woah, dah besar dah ke ni ? Nanti mesti orang bagi nasihat "awak tu dah besar, perangai tu macam orang besar sikit." Kan kan ? Cehh.

Okay lah I nak sambung sing along with Adam. He said laptop dia punya battery gila. So, before dia off sendiri baik I stop here.

Bye bye, Loves.

Who is the one friend who would tell you the truth even though it hurts hearing?

2010-02-25T03:23:00.003+08:00

Farah Najihah answered Adzrin Nadzirah.

Aku baru tersedar sesuatu. Aku hanya ada lebih kurang 48 jam untuk menikmati kehidupan belasan tahun. Oh tidak, mungkin bagi anda, menjelajahi umur puluhan tahun ini tidak membawa makna tidak memberi kesan tetapi tidak bagi saya. Tak boleh terima wooooooooooooohh ! Okay, apa yang harus dilakukan untuk menikmati detik detik akhir berumur belasan tahun ini ? Ummm. berlagak seperti kanak kanak or pra remaja sepuas mungkin ? ? Tak boleh terima lagi ni nak berumur puluh puluh. Tidak Tidak Tidak ! Kenapa susah sangat nak terima ni. Baiklah, saya mahu enjoy detik detik terakhir ini dan di harap akan tiada gangguan, terutamanya gangguan otak. Sekejap, lah esok 26th lusa 27th lah pulak. Tarikh hangat bagi setiap bulan untuk 7 bulan kebelakangan. Harap harap semua berlalu dengan pantas. Eh, tak nak ! Nanti cepat sangat umur jadi puluhan tahun. Ish, I'm totally a confused girl now.

Terasa seperti baru semalam sambut ulang tahun kelahiran Sweet 16 di Sekolah Menengah Sains Hulu Selangor bersama sama keluarga dan rakan. Esok lusa dah nak jejak 20 ?

Okay, bersyukur. Harap harap sempat jejak 20.

Tuhan, panjangkan umur aku. Amin.

What should I do ? What should I say ?

2010-02-24T01:40:00.001+08:00

He said he had fallen so in love with me
He told me I'm the only one that he could see
And I said "ditto, ditto, ditto"

Ain't it so funny how real love can be simple
When you find someone to share it with who feels the same
I can see it in your eyes the words you mean to say

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share, shows he cares

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right

Is it you?
Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

I'm confused, can I just stand still, stay put and do nothing?
I have to figure out whats in me, I need time to find me
Don't get me wrong, I do need you.

Don’t close your eyes,

2010-02-23T17:56:00.001+08:00

You’re missing a good thing

Goodbye to you my trusted friend

2010-02-20T02:59:00.001+08:00

Wan Ahmad Nazrin !

Wish you all the best in New Zealand

Be good, all the best !

Goldy Luck, friend

Will be missing you.

^-^

Suppose it's our third year been officially together but we didn't make it till this extend instead we're six months being not together (laughs)

2010-02-14T15:03:00.005+08:00

All your worries, leave them somewhere else,
Find a dream you can follow,
Reach for something, when there's nothing left,
And the world's feeling hollow.

Fly,

Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine, forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time to fly.

In a moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can't wait,
Let go of yesterday.

Hilary Duff - Fly

Kawan-kawan, it's my semester break now. Pick me up for lepak-lepak and jalan-jalan because I tak ada kereta ni. Marilah, marilah. Rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ! : )

I wish I could jump on the stars until I reach Neptune

2010-02-11T23:56:00.006+08:00

Pisces

February 20 to March 20

Symbol - The Fishes
Element - Water
Planet - Neptune

Love Life:
You are a passionate kisser

You have a lot of sex appeal

You are a wonderful lover

More Compatible with - Pisces, Virgo, Cancer, Scorpio, Capricorn

Less Compatible with - Leo, Gemini, Aries, Taurus

Qualities Of Pisces

Compassionate
Selfless
Sympathetic
Artistic
Intuitive
Carefree
Imaginative
Joyful
Free-Spirited
Sensitive

Interpretative

Understanding
Easygoing
Charitable

Lucky Color - Sea Green or Turquoise
Lucky Stone - Aquamarine
Lucky Day - Friday
Lucky Number - Three or Six
Lucky Metal - Tin

What does your birth day say about you ?

What does your birth date mean ?

Born on the 27th

You have an attractive and vibrant personality

You are a social animal and like to party

You make new friends very easily

You are known for your good sense of humor

At times, you are very obstinate

You can forgive but you don't forget easily

In your love life, you tend to be choosy in your search for the perfect partner

I should be studying Marketing by now because the test is tomorrow night. Instead, I'm studying Facebook as always. Facebook, evethough there's nothing in you, I don't know what makes me sooo into you. I'm gonna kill you facebook, for making me distracted as I had chose you instead of the book. Sigh. So long, Loves.

Sometimes, I wanna scream out loud !

2010-02-10T02:25:00.001+08:00

Abang and me :O

Tadi dah decide nak sleep at 2am. Now it's 2 am, rasa nak update blog so tak jadi lah sleep. Tidur paling lambat pon at 230 am lah okay ? Dah tak berjaya dah my cita cita harapan bangsa dan negara to sleep before 1 am everyday. Masa the first two weeks to okay lah lagi berjaya je. After that mmg tak dpt lah, 1 am baru balik bilik lah, busy itulah inilah, facebook lah, on phone lah, study lah. (okay ini mmg tipu je haha)

So, Law Test is over and done ! ! Wooohoooooooo ! ! Tak sangka macam nak bertelur, terkeluar semua isi perut jawab Law tadi. Dengan seat yang tak best, plus first time nak jawab Law memang chaos lah dalam badan ni. Time tu lah rasa nak menangis, rasa nak ketawa, semua lah rasa ! Alhamdulillah, rasanya boleh jawab tadi. Just that ada few points yang ingat but then tak tulis sebab tak sure betul ke tak so rugilah tak letak but it's okay.

Masa memang tak cukup lah because paper Law tu over 200 marks tau ! Banyak kan kan kan ? Answer in 1 and a half hours. Hahaha I buat essay 40 marks je dah 45 minutes, lepas tu buat essay 60 marks laju gila main tulis je semua benda yang lalu kat my head, explaination pun sikit je. MCQ buat in 15 minutes. Macam bullet train je tulis.

Ohhh haaa lawak for today. Tadi after Law Test Syida call mama dia because dia mcm frust sikit lah so call mama dia nak bagi tenang and okay :

Syida : Mama, tadi Syida test Law.

Mama : Huh ? Awak nak jadi Lawyer ke ??

(We're taking Investment and Law subject is part of the course je )

Lepas tu Syida terus cakap kat mak dia takpe lah ma Syida call nanti je ok bye bye bye sambil gelak gelak macam apa je haha :P Mak dia dengan dia sama je blur sebenarnyaaaaa . Sayang, jangan marah ok !

Now, Law dah habis, relieved sikit, can focus on English Week and Marketing Test pulak on Friday night. Balik rumah on Saturday, sedih je semua orang dah balik awal. Huh-- Sokay lah, tak kisah pun.

Dah lah, I feel like sleeping. Esok class Finance at 8 am. Tu lagi satu problem tak tau lah apa yang I belajar during class, masuk keluar masuk keluar. Pergi class dengan tak pergi sama je rasanya haha. Dengan buku Investing hilang. Sigh sigh, nasib baik belum give up lagi nak belajar this subject. Lol.

Okay lah, Night night, Loves.

Life is too short to live it just for you

2010-02-07T01:47:00.007+08:00

My favourite song back in 2006. I used to not to believe on what she sings, but I did now. Haha, I have to because it has been three years from the time and yeah, you're long gone. They knew better. :)

You took my hand, you showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh ?That's right

I took your words And I believed
In everything You said to me
Yeah huh ? That's right

If someone said three years from now you'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out cause they're all wrong
I know better cause you said forever and ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no, No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now

Before they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong, they knew better
Still you said forever and ever
Who knew

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

That last kiss
I'll cherish until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember

But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew

1 New multimedia message received

Message : Friends 4eva..till death do us apart..

Sender : Mr Confidence

Date : 23.10.2006

I miss having a best friend just like before.

Anyone ?

Can't help it, the girls can't help it

2010-02-06T15:09:00.002+08:00

Good morning !

Lalalala ok saja saja je cakap morning padahal dah panas terik kat luar tu, saya yang tak mandi lagi (anak dara zaman moden kan memang kurang berguna sedikit) Woke up at 11am lepas tu sambung tidur balik and then bangun balik at 1230pm bangun tu semua pon sebab ada phone call. Igtkan bunyi phone dalam mimpi so tak pick up, rupanya reality haha.

Hari nak cerita tentang hari semalam yang half planned and unplanned. I'm not unplanned kind of person sebab I like things which is planned and all. Compared to my friends yang suka sangat buat unplanned activities terutamanya Bud Serizawa and Suharshafika Tuban. Wait! I think I pon selalu je sebenarnya buat unplanned activities ni kan ? Lagi lagi dengan University life yang tak menentu ni haha. So apa apa je lah, saya mahu bercerita tentang semalam yang menyebabkan saya hampir tidak mahu bangun hari ini.

We planned to go to Sagil (Gunung Ledang). Budak budak tu Nur Saiyidah(Syida) and Farah Ain (tu budak ke ?) nak sangat pergi because our last visit there was back in Part 1. Dah halfway tu diorang tgk langit macam nak hujan, so sibuk lah masing masing "weh jom pergi Melaka lah!" and I was like NO, kalau tak hujan pergi je Sagil and IF hujan baru boleh pergi Melaka. I promised Adek (Husna Fatanah) to go to Tangkak and see her jugak. Mereka pon akur lah cakap I yang garang ni and we went to Sagil ; panjat panjat gunung, terjun, lompat, terkinja kinja, terjatuh, koyak lutut, lebam peha, terhentak siku, (semua yang sounds menyakitkan tu terjadi kat Syida seorang sahaja haha) Oh lupa nak mention, ada Abang Shah Izwan (kekasih Farah) sekali with us, jadi kami berempat lah.

Abang Wan - back view, muka dirahsiakan haha

Tengah bergembira ni Abang Wan tiba tiba cakap jomlah pergi Melaka, tengok wayang semua and I'm like "ye lah yelah jom but kena pergi tengok Adek dulu". See? Mula mula kena pilih last last pergi dua dua jugak, Sagil and Melaka. So jam 1 petang kami bersiap siap turun gunung lari lari ikut anak tangga and sampai bawah pergi toilet buat itu buat ini beli nasi untuk Adek, beli air, minum Redbull lepas tu terus bergerak ke Kolej Matrikulasi Tangkak. Disebabkan kuantiti penduduk dalam kereta ramai, jadi Makcik penjaga tu tak bagi masuk so Adek pon menapak lah keluar. We ate lunch in the car sesempit mungkin and Abang Wan belanja semuaa orang makan Ice cream, Thankiuu ;)

Adek.

After that, Adek went to her class and we continue our journey to Melaka. Lalalalalala semua tiba tiba dah reach Melaka. Since Farah ada Abang Wan and Syida called her friend yang in Melaka dtg meet up semua I pon decided to call Kero (Khairur Rahim) , picked him up lepas tu pergi Jusco baruuuuu. Besar and ramai orang because it's the grand opening semalam so memang lah semua orang berpusu pusu. The only offer yang menarik perhatian kami was T-shirts at Brand Outlet - 3 For RM50. We ate at A&W lepas pastu pergi beli that T-shirts. One for Kero, one for Syue and two for me :D Kenapa I got two ? because dah kat cashier baru dia ckp cannot mix lelaki and perempuan punya, Kero said takpelah dia bayar dia punya satu, ladies punya take three and then he paid one for me. Thanks Kero !

Syida and Farah.

My all-time-favourite !

Dah habis shopping lari lari pergi kat the car sebab dah lambat nak hantar Abang Wan to Melaka Sentral, dia nak balik Klang naik bus so bawak kereta sampai the terminal, turun lah Abang Wan berlabuh ke Klang, ditemani dengan linangan air mata Farah yang sesat semasa pulang ke kereta selepas menghantar Abang Wan. Then, hantar Kero ke rumahnya pula, after the Bye Bye we went back to Segamat.

Kero ni dah minta pinjam from Syue tau.

Pukul 1015pm sampai, Mummy called and Abah bising dia cakap lain kali kalau pergi mana mana bagitauu. He said, "cuba kalau tiba tiba keluar kat paper 'Seorang lelaki di Melaka mati di pukul seorang perempuan' and Abah buat tak tau je rupa rupanya tgk gambar kauu macam mana?" and I said buat apa I nak pukul org ? He replied "mana tau kau naik berang?" and I'm like Okay -.-" Salah saya.

preety tak ? I like sgt sgt :)

So that was my yesterday, it was on Friday our classes was canceled due to new Vice President's visit to our campus. Pheeewwww. . Memenatkan. Hari ni Saturday and esok Sunday we have to stay in campus diam diam baca buku because we got Law Test and Marketing Test next week. Time to eat the books ! Wish me luck ! -.-V

Tata, Loves.

Masih jelas terasa getar dawai jiwamu

2010-02-05T02:49:00.002+08:00

Hi there .

I'm a sleepyhead now. Mengantuk, but as always mahu update blog.

I watched How To Deal tonight, alone in my room.

Interesting movie, I love it, a very simple storyline but pretty much it brings back memories. Why? because most of the soundtrack was my fav songs back then, ~~when we were together~~. By means, our love songs. Triggers my nerves because dah lama tak dengar those songs, unexpectedly dia berlagu in that movie. Sad? Hahaha, I almost cried at the end of the movie, which ends happily. There's this one line in the movie, which have a deep meaning, "First Love, are never really over" . Umm, okay whatever. I am A-OKAY now. :)

Today tak tahu nak cerita apa. What to update ?

Shitty face, those eyes dah meronta ronta.

Still, I have no idea on what to talk about.

Cepat lah!

What to write niiiii ??

Okay enough, Imma get some sleep.

Nights, Loves.

Oh what a day is today

2010-02-04T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hari ni merupakan hari yang paling memenatkan setakat ini dalam minggu ini. During lunch hour tadi went out with Syida and Farah, pergi bank because Syida nak masukkan duit yang beribu-ribu lemon tu. Masa beratur kat cash deposit machine tu tanya Syida "number account ada tak ?" and then she's like "eh, alamak ! lupa nak bawak" sengal number 1 betul kan ? nasib baik ada org lain yg tau account number dia so call je lah that person . Masa nak masukkan the money dah lah lama gila. Dah masukkan duit semua but then I accidentally pressed the NO button, so duit semua keluar balikk. . haha. Orang beratur kat belakang dah lah panjang. Kesian kan ? Si Farah ni pon sengal juga, dia pegi ATM keluarkan her money, and then she asked me "kalau nak masuk duit kat asb pergi kat kaunter je kan ?" . I said yes and I asked pulak "buku asb bawak ke ?" dia pon mcm hehehehe dok gelak, pastu korek korek bag takde. Adoilah kawan kawan aku ni. -.-"

Disebabkan rasa penat, I refused to drive the car. Farah ni tak nak pulak bawak kereta tu macam apa tah hari ni. Rushing kejar siapa pon mak tak tau lah. Tiba tiba dalam kekalutan tu I perasan something. "Weh, CENDOL tumpah, berhenti tepi !" Masa tu I was eating KFC and tgk tgk cendol Farah dah terbalik. Bila dah berhenti tu Syida cakap "Takut lah nak turun" Igtkan kenapa rupanya kat tepi kubur masa tu. Hahaha nak taknak turun je lah and cuci cuci carpet and bag Farah pon kena cendol so cuci lah juga.

Dah siap semua jalan. Vrrrooooom-- Farah bawak laju laju. Tiba tiba dia tanya "Bag I mana ?" . I tgk tgk takde pon kat belakang and teringat last sekali Syida letak atas bumbung . Lol ! So buat U-turn, Farah dah risau gila because kan baru keluarkan duit . Luckily nampak ada makcik mcm tengah kutip the bag from jalan raya and kitorang pon berhenti tepi ambil that bag. Purse and phone terselamat tak tercampak mana mana, bag ada kerosakan.

Cerita tak berakhir di situ, dah patah balik nak balik Uitm I pass my CENDOL to Syida, dia boleh pulak tengah menggelabah tu pegi tumpahkan kat carpet seat depan pulak ! So, berhenti lagi sekali. This time kat rumah nenek kebayan mana tah bak kata Farah. Nenek tu tinggal sorang so we thot kesian and igtkan dia nak ajak kitorang tinggal ngn dia ke apa, but then dia cakap "haa ni ada rumah sewa, rumah batu harga bla bla blaaa" and then dia dok try hafal the number "017 lalala, eh jap lalalala" haha sengal punya nenek.

Sampai Uitm dah 1350 and we got class at 1410 tapi sebab I dah mengantuk I tidur dulu, Syida tunggu sampai 1430 baru pergi class. On the way pergi class boleh pulak jalan betul betul depan lori lepas tu undecided nak pegi kiri or kanan. Pakcik lori tu pon dah pusing the stering kiri kanan kiri kana. Last last semua gelak dgn pakcik tu sekali. Sengal laagiiiiiiii. :p

So, end up bila dah sampai at class, di sebabkan kan class mass lecture, gabung 7 classes, kitorang sampai lambat so malas nak turun tangga duduk depan, we sat at the last row. Itu pon main panjat je nak duduk kat kerusi tu bukan main malas nak masuk ikut tepi hehe. Lecturer kat depan membebel we tak tau apa apa and end up terjadi lah lukisan gambar di atas. Cantik tak ? Hehe comment anda diperlukan :)

The End.

Night night, Loves !